Joe March @josephine
I’m a 31-year-old adult(!) My childhood was something mixed with magical stuff, abuse,abandonment and everything. My father died when I was a toddler and my mother was married off to someone else,had to love away from her for some time. I have a fear of abandonment. I have never been in any secure, long term relationship. Never. I tried to be in one but for some reason, they never really choose to be with me. Everyone left. Some might say I didn’t put enough effort,but I did. I really did,the best way I could, I did. But nothing really worked out. And somehow, I ended up being alone, I never had proper sexual interconnection with someone as well. And now,at this age, it’s bothering me a LOT! I mean why not!!! I don’t know how to deal with it. I do want relationship and everything but right now, I just want someone to be with me. How do you get into this without being emotionally connected?? Don’t get me wrong, I just want to explore my sexual, physical self as a woman. I feel like I’m missing out on things, of lifes pleasure. How do I do it? How do people do it? Has anyone gone through the same situation?? How did you cope? What did you do?? Any kind suggestion will be appreciated, tha ks!