when I was just a little kid, I always stay at home, I didnāt even remember going outside during my childhood timesā¦ unlike the other kids playing outdoors and my siblings also when they are just kidsā¦ thereās this saying that āChildhood is like when you are drunk, everyone remembers what you did, except youā(ctto)ā¦yes itās true but I remember this unforgettable childhood memory of mine. When I try to go outside because I want to know whatās going on outside, I saw people out there, and the fact that Iām scared of people the first time I saw them makes me scared the most. Iām scared of people, even on TV, I am scared whatās going on on TV, Iām being ignorantā¦I canāt even interact with others until now, especially with kidsā¦I donāt know why. But when time goes by, Iām not scared of people at all and Iām happy about that fact but when I was in 3rd grade, 8 years old I guess, I found out that Iām nearsighted, I can see things clearly when they are near but when they are far away from me I canāt see them clearā¦now, Iām 13 years old, a high school student and in school, I need to bring a cellphone with a good camera to capture whatās written in the blackboard but despite my nearsighted, that doesnāt affect my grades at school, Iām with high honor in our classroom until now. but thatās only in school, everywhere I go, the fact that my friends can experience seeing things clearly whether itās near or far, unlike me, makes me feel insecure cause they can live a life I always dream ofā¦ one day, because Iām curious about my nearsightedness, I search it through the internet and found out that one of the reasons of being nearsighted is spending more time indoors and now I know, I know why Iām experiencing this kind of situation at the age of 8 until now, and note, I never wear glasses or contact lenses and Iām waiting for that day to come cause Iām afraid that this will get worse but Iām still praying and hopingā¦and one thing, now I realized why Iām afraid of people when Iām just a kid, itās because I canāt see their face when they are far away and I thought they are different from me, that they donāt have faces and me and my family is the only one who have facesā¦hahaha, funny right?
If you do not use glasses/contact lenses it will get worse. Consult ophthalmologist. Inform parents.
I already told them and we planned to consult this summer but I think the timing is not right because of this pandemic
we donāt have an ophthalmologist here because weāre living in an Islandā¦
