Very bad.. i want to change in life but am so depressed i hate to mingle even with family members I hide I don't laugh.. i cry.. i am alone.. no friends.. my relationship is bad.. I don't get any type of happiness mentally I want to change achieve big things.  But.. I can't even take a 1st step

sushma 

Hi brother it’s ok if you have trust issues but u should give a second chance to yourself 

Hey let's connect until the world seperates us 

I know it’s hard to take the step forward to move on but just think of the good things that will come your way when you take the step. 

Failure

Backspaced all the long vent... I don't feel like even venting here now, this place also feels alone now which was the only go to place for me . _ .
 F**kkkkk I feel so alone. I want either to take my life god( if there is any) or just make me disappear from this world plzz. Maybe the creature did a mistake by making me a human. I am a f**king adultttttt god I don't want this life 

Mental Health

I am writing this since nobody knows me here anyways. 

I have so much work to do but I can't find the urge to do it right now. 
I just want to watch movies and series as of the moment. I want to be isolated. I want to be on my own. I don't want anybody to bother me. 

Last month, it was good. I was very productive and organized. 
This month is a total wreck. My bag got stolen. My phone, wallet, ID's,  atm card. All of it. Gone. During the incident, I feel worried and shitty and I blame myself for losing the bag. A week after that, I tried to shrug it off and move on. I don't want to mourn and keep on being sad about it. And until now, I am having a hard time to get back on my feet and go back to my usual self.

I want to be strong. No one else can do that for me. 

I know that those are just material things. But watching the things you really worked hard for to banish just like that... is a whole new different kind of pain. 

I want to be honest with myself. I feel really sad and mad about it. Yet, I don't want people to shoe me weak and pitiful. 

But no matter how hard I try to hide it... I pity myself either.

Depression

I’m overwhelmed. Maybe because of the work and everything but I feel like I keep putting myself second. Need to pay attention and take care of myself because what’s the point of all that 

Exhausted

Stop crossing oceans for people who won't jump puddles for you.

Self Love

I feel crappy. Well, It's not all that bad as I'm quite used to this feeling. But I'm doing quite well physically.. And I'm kind of being pretentious around everyone. Like I laugh, crack jokes, stay happy? While being around everyone I know and love. But I don't feel them inside like idk. It feels kind of like dissociating myself? I'm mainly feeling a few things like guilt ( a shit load of them) guilt for eating, for drinking, for breathing, for thinking something.. Guilt for not being grateful for, I got great friends and family. I know I'm loved and I know I love them too but I just feel so tired from everything, i can't do the things I like. I can't eat properly and it's kinda started to show and I really don't like that this facade is breaking. I talk to my friends and I know I can open upto them but I can't? I feel like a burden already and making them worry about me is the last thing I want to do. Besides my other friends are going through really tough times and I'm like that therapist friend/ listener friend among the group and I do want to listen and reach out (and I'm doing it) but I don't know how long will I be able to hold it all in? I feel really exhausted every morning. I think it might be emotional burnout or depression.. But I feel like I'm too tired to even care at this point. But it's not serious serious... Like i know i will continue to exist but I don't like this feeling I'm feeling. And I also know this time will pass and things will get better all those things but the feeling is super unpleasant. 

Damn. I sound like a damsel in distress. Which I hate again😅



Idk if I'm being too sensitive or I'm tired of being gaslighted 

Life can be really tough sometimes, and it's okay to feel overwhelmed. 
Speaking to a professional can be like having a caring friend who truly listens and helps you make sense of your feelings. They're there to support you, just like a steady anchor during a storm. It's a brave step to reach out, and it can lead to brighter days ahead. You don't have to go through this journey alone; there are people who want to help you find your way to emotional well-being.

3am Thoughts

I WANT TO SCREAM, WHY DID I FREAKING DO THAT

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