There are many phases of life. Don't judge me according to the situations we met in. 

True, who I was yesterday, is not who I am today 

Other

@ Aruna G 

where are you in this beautiful world 
please come back 

Does anyone know this girl  please ask her check this post 

Love

Today my friend called me , i was talking then she told me that I'm giving interviews..... Then i realised that I'm so useless , I'm literally sitting on my couch doing nothing, it's not that I've not tried for job but i don't know what God's plan for me.....everytime I try to get a job something happens either I don't go to interview or any other reasons ..... 
     Whenever someone tell me i achieve this or that my mind just upsets me and i compare myself ......


3am Thoughts

I hope this time I don't wake up. Or no one takes me to the hospital.

Suicidal Ideation

Hi, I don’t know if anyone will see this or even reply but I have been feeling the lowest since few days. I do have a lot of issues which I usually can cope up with but, this guy I am in love with. The moment we get into any argument I start stacking up all my problems and get the worst mental breakdowns. I am very much aware of how unnecessarily attached I am to him but I can’t help it. It’s like he is the only one who keeps me happy but any time we get into an argument I feely worst. It’s like I want to break up with him but the thought of it makes me want to cry even more. I do have a lot of friends but I dont think anyone would understand me.

I feel like crying but I'm used to holding everything in. Can someone just talk me through it?

So many tags! Must I include them?

Anxiety

Ever had dreams about a person and then suddenly catch feelings for him/her? 

So i was just brainstorming about some random things and suddenly like a rewind video of my childhood traumas played through my mind. Just wanted to vent it out here. So my mom and dad both r on job even b4 they were married. They are two strong headed people and often have opinion clashes and i grew up listening to their verbal fights about finances, properties,management, loans. Basically they lacked communication which lead to misunderstanding and then it would heat upto a fight. Ofcourse all this affected us(me and my younger bro) mentally. We have seen it since childhood. But has fortunately vanished as they communicate and things are going pretty well [touchwood]. Actually there was one more reason behind the fights betn mom and dad it was that my dad cheated on my mom like 4 to 5 times with different women. She'd come to know about it and then a fight and this continued. He doesn't do it anymore as we have grown up and unfortunately i myself saw 3 of these incidences with my eyes but i was too small to understand whats happening[it's traumatizing now]. Due to this my mom tried to kill herself twice. Once she haded a suicide note to me but fortunately nothing bad happened. That note shattered me as a kid. I almost felt lifeless for a moment. I don't know if it's true but my dad claims that those things happened due to a black magic. Don't want to talk about it deeply. I feel my father has genuinely changed now he does everything to make us happy and since almost five years he gives his best even before he wasn't a bad human being he did all that a dad would do for his childeren but unfortunately he wasn't a good husband. But sadly i remember the past clearly and i have forgiven him for his past miatakes. But sometimes i just think like he made my childhood traumatized and above all he made my mom go through all that crap[i hated him like nothing] but my mom said that hate will just rip us apart. Let's make a fresh start and live like a happy family since then things are going smooth![evil eyes off] it was a horrible child hood though. I cried while thinking of it and felt like expressing. Plz don't say anything bad about my parents they learnt from their mistakes and that's what matter. I love them!

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