Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

So I was fourteen when I found out that my father had tried to call a prostitute on his “business trip”. I fucking idolized him!!! . It shatters my heart when I see my girlfriends being pampererd by their fathers and getting Valentines from them , I’m happy for them but God!! I’m also jealous because I never got to experience that. All I had growing up was a lying cheat of a father , who treated my mother like shit. I UGHHHHHAGGAGAG!!! I cry to this day because of him and he has no clue