Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

self harm really helps depressed people. other people would say “why self harm when you can just kill yourself?” the things is, we don’t want to kill ourselves. we just want to express our pain. most people who do self harm are those people who can’t cry, or can no longer cry. crying their heart out but there’s no tears visible. when i was 14 or 15, i always hurt myself. not because i want the attention, as a matter of fact, i don’t want my family to know that I’ve been hurting myself because i’m afraid that they will just invalidate what i feel and it will hurt me even more. so, i am self harming because i can’t cry, and guess what, it is the most frustrating thing in the world. imagine being in pain so much that all u want to do is cry hoping that i can lessen the pain, but turns out u have no tears. how am i able to express my pain? how am i able to lessen the pain? it is so hard. so instead, i will hurt myself physically, in order to divert the pain, it lessened the pain in my heart. self harming really helps, but it can get u addicted to it. right now, i no longer self harm, the scars are still there. it reminds me of my young self who can’t control her emotions. the only difference between me and my old self is that, right now, i’m still depressed but i can control my emotions a little. it’s a progress right? im getting in there. slowly. just trust the process.