It's like my body is tired 
I no more have energy to do anything
I just fucking ate and was ready to study for the whole night 
But here I am struggling to type this out
I am so doomed 
I won't be able to become the person I wanted to all cuz of this damned pain
I don't even have the energy to lift my hand or grab water
All of a sudden I lost everything
I feel like my eyes are falling out 
I just want to hug someone and go to sleep

Hi there
Take some rest, deep breaths and gather some positive energy.
Don’t feel like you are left behind or something, think of all the positive things that have happened in your life and sleep well.
Wake up tomorrow morning with positive energy to switch your actions and study.
Hope it will help.

Depression

Today was like an imbalance in emotions and the activities....... Now I'm feeling lonely.... Overthinking stupid conversations and feeling like eveyday , everyone just tries to pull me down..... No matter how hard I try, how polite I act with them but they just doesn't stop pulling me down.. 

Delusion

Is it absolutely normal to fall for someone who's basically much more older than you..n eventually you both get involved in physical stuff? 

Life

It's a different kind of pain when I am the one who always gives too much for all relationships and knowing that it only brings utter disappointment. 

Mental Health

So there's this guy who I think is interesting. My kinda interesting. He's pretty good at catching hints too. I initiated our first conversation and we have quite a few common interests and outlook towards like. Some don't match though. I really want our acquaintance to become bigger than what it is now. We have polite and meaningful conversations with each other. But I would like to know him more and I want him to know more about me. Like our likes and dislikes. What makes us happy/sad/angry. Basically the stuff that's required to build a strong relationship. Although he's quite intelligent, I don't know whether he gets my hints or he's turning a blind eye to me. I have tried subtle ways of letting him know that I like him and enjoy his companionship. Also, I tried to bring in the picture of another guy just to see how he'd react. I really couldn't make out from his expression if he disliked it or he was just being indifferent. 

The guy in question isn't extraordinary but my eyes see him in a way that makes him so. I have had past crushes who were mind-blowingly awesome. Still I am unable to just forget him and go on like there's nothing messy about my emotions.

There's also a pattern that I have been observing with the kind of guys I get attracted to. Intelligent, smart, kind, tall, handsome (a bit at least) with a strong sense of individuality and self worth. The downside is that these guys are emotionally highly unreachable by normal standards. How do I get to make him understand that I want to see him more than as just an acquaintance by being subtle. I don't want any awkwardness to come in between us (we work at the same place and have quite a few mutual friends)? 
I feel like this guy is just enough alike me so that I can be comfortable and just enough different from me so I won't be bored. I just don't know what to do with him. Before knowing him, he was like a mystery. After knowing him a little bit, I want to know him better. I am the kind who when gets curious wants to learn a lot. Be it a topic or a person. Or I keep getting the feeling that something is incomplete. 

I can't go on like this any longer. I am unable to get over him. And coz of that, I am unable to see any other guy as a *potential* mate. I am ready for a life of settling down with a man and don't want to keep playing the game of 'what next?' 
Any useful suggestions are welcome. Any posts/videos/books that can help me with it are also welcome. Someone put some sense into me.

Thank you.

One Sided Love

Why do some people just blame you when it's not even your fault....maybe to justify they are never wrong...but isn't it the wrong thing ever done....now he is unaware of the thoughts I'm having or the condition I'm going through...he just blamed ne...tere wajh se sab hua and yeah that's it!... what about ny feelings man...

Confusion

Hey, i want to ask somthing i am doing a job. Which i doesn't want to do. But if i tries to find a new job there is somthing which stops me to doing that. I think its me fear of leaving my comfort zone. What i can do for it. Help me

Compassion

I'm gonna hide my demons from everyone the evil in my thoughts and still managed to not be revealed in my actions. Is it everyone like that or is it Just me who are many different person but one. 
Nobody understands i won't let anybody peek into the darkness of mine it will be with me forever .

Mental Wellbeing

When some person talks with me politely like shows me love, I start oversharing then that person becomes starts blaming me 

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