I’m having a sinking feeling. I’m 28 years old single mom to a 5 year old kid. I left my ex-husband when I was pregnant. Mine was an arranged marriage. A never-ending divorce has been going on for the past 4 years. My problem is with my parents. I’m not sure how to explain them. But what I do know is, they try to pull me down at every part of life. I’ve seen them fight and bicker with each other since my childhood and I’ve always been the one on the middle of their fight. I was always asked to pick sides. I was very happy and relieved to get married and go away, only to realize that my emotional turmoil grew after I went to my in-laws’ place. I was starting to lose health and I was brought back here. Now, every single thing that I do is judged by them and they give me their opinion of everything that I want to do. From everyday cooking (sometimes the way I hold a ladle) to some classes that I want to join. There is something negative that they have to tell me. If I tell them I want to move out, they start pulling me down telling me I’m a good for nothing and can’t survive even 1 minute without them. The arranged marriage that I had no role to play and absolutely no say, has been turned against me and they simple said I should not have married him in the first place. If I tell them how I feel, it’s a huge issue that goes on for about a week. For example, I told them that I needed to rest out a Sunday and that became a huge issue. I can’t go out to meet my friends but they go out all the time. I can’t talk, I can’t go out, I can’t go to classes and I don’t even know how to tell them that I don’t like the way they behave. Because even if I told them in the most subtle language, they read between lines and it’s a problem.