I’m finding it hard to make friends after moving. I went to a comedy show tonight and completely fell back to my old patterns and embarrassed myself in front of people. I feel so embarrassed and that they have a bad impression of me now. I want to go and explain myself that I didn’t mean for it to come off that way, I just have a tendency to people please and have a hard time of accepting things from people because I don’t think I’m worth it.
The comedy show is a weekly thing. I wanted to make it a weekly thing for myself as well, but I feel like i fucked up and I can’t go back there.
I know I’m being hard on myself, but I want a chance to make it right. It’s hard to let things like this go. I want to make friends, but I’ve always had no clue how to. (All my friends are extroverted and adopted me 😅.) now I feel like after the pandemic, it’s just more impossible