Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I’m 17 years old,male , I was questioning my sexuality in May for some odd reason. No I don’t message any girls, I don’t know any (schools got a few - 3). It’s been a year since covid and in may, I started questioning my sexuality on and off. Then at the end of June, I started questioning my sexuality again, and this time constantly, to the point where I got subtle anxiety. I’ve always been attracted to women, deeply, until now. Just recently, I was invited to some party randomly. I drank a lot (enough to make me tipsy, not drunk) and met a few girls (which I kissed) (not heavy make out, just a kiss). This being my first kiss, I thought later that I would regret this in the morning. Now since that day, I haven’t felt the same. My attraction to women Is being dished onto by anxiety and I feel this consistent pain in my heart. I’ve never been attracted to men, just a bunch of gay jokes here and there with friends that’s it. This past year has just been memes and school, nothing else. I don’t know if I’m attracted to men or to women, but I do know that a woman’s body does get me heavily aroused, but that connection that I used to feel, that desire to be with a girl forever, has gone, or is masked by a false sense of anxiety. I have no idea what to do.