If dealing with social situations is hard for you , it doesn't make you weak. Everytime you show up and push through , you grow and learn . You're doing such a great job babe.

Mental Health

feeling awesome 

Celebration

"Dekhi soneya (2).. apa milange jarur ve"....❤️🎵🎶

Music

Keeping things bottled up and hidden because of societal pressure and because of what people might think can be one of the worst things you could do to yourself. You need to let it out. You need to see the bigger picture. 

Other

So I've been dating this girl for like 8 months, things have been going okay. We dated back in high school for a short bit she was kinda my first serious relationship. What ended it back then was she was a bit of a downer, a little black rain cloud. There was always something going on to upset her, like something not going her way. She also would get upset when I'd have to go to work which is sweet but when you have to call in every other day because someone cant spend the day without you it gets kinda annoying, then it kinda felt like she didn't care if I was there or not. She went to prom with another guy because I couldn't due to some trouble I got into, then me and my mom got Into a fight and I call her to talk about what happened but she didn't seem to care so I told her a few days later that I wanted to break up, she wanted me to come over and talk about it which we did and she seemed okay with it she just wanted to have sex one more time. Which really made feel like she could care less. So we split up and didn't see each other till a few years ago which has been about 14 years since we dated. She left her husband because he wasn't giving her any attention and I guess he was a dick sometimes. But it bothers me how she went about it, she left him a note saying she had feelings for me and I'm sure alot more stuff. But he loaded he kids up and left to come stay with me which at the time I was staying with a friend of mine in a two bedroom house with him his wife and their two kids. Now with 10 people in one house when I had my kids over as well we was pretty crammed. Not sure how someone can do that and think it's a problem, but we all made it work for a few months. Her dad had past away last year and she has inherited his house which is a 1 1/2 bedrooms and is full of stuff. We've been slowly working on it for about 5 months now and haven't make much headway. Which bugs me because my kids still have to sleep on the floor, well a pallet when they come over because there's no room for a spare bed. Also her kids run over her, yell and scream all the time and are constantly making messes. Not sure how much I can stand, it doesn't help that she hasn't changed much still a downer, there's always something wrong. She always sick or dont feel good or things are overwhelming. Not sure if I should stick around to see if things will work out a just say we tryed

Stress

I literally just want someone to want me like I want them

3am Thoughts

Deprived of intimate touch

Baar baar aapko apna man manna pade so your parents are happy whilst your siblings always do what they wish to and are happy too but me, a girl, who has always placed her parents wishes before her so they don’t get upset as they are already upset by my siblings self absorbed behaviour but one day comes when I get a no from them for doing something which my heart feels happy about and then again I have to let myself down by ignoring my feelings. I don’t know it’s becoming very emotionally exhausting for me as now regrets are haunting me daily by which my sleeps getting disturbed and I get angry and irritated with no Interest in any activities. I always think if I had taken a right decision or listened to my heart I would have been in a better position already . Stuck in a loop of regret . 

Today didn't start off good was having pains in my chest all morning and headaches I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow morning.
To talk about my blood work and the headaches fro this vaccine I got.
With all the deaths I've went thru this year and family Freud case I don't know how much mental health problems I can get going through.
But on a positive not now I can talk to people on this site about things daily with paying for a over priced therapist I just wish I had one on one interaction now I miss companionship so much now and I'm not even talking about sex.
I miss walking through the park holding someones hand going out to dinner just talking about our problems.
I don't see that happy in my life now sometimes I feel my life is over at 52 I go to bed every night thinking  I'm not gona walk up anymore.

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