I wanted to stay with my grandmother only she's there really understands me and care about me a lot .... But couldn't stay because of a lot of problems... Why I don't have anyone close to me who can stay with me 😔💔
Today was a real bad day 

Depression

I just wish I could cook my grandmother some jalapeños poppers that I grew in my garden 💚💚💚 Do you ever truly get over a loss?

So I'm  the only child in the family and my dad passed away 2 yr ago. Been daddy's  little girl all my life, and now all of a sudden my only pillar of support is no more. Now my mom is sick and has to undergo a surgery. She has suffered a lot being a cancer survivor.  Its really tough to do everything alone. I really need a shoulder to lean on

Cancer

just found out my grandpa has lung🥺 what do i do now... i’m losing myself:(

Love

A little depressed.....I heard that my frnds grandpa passed away two days back and he was in regret becoz he was unable to make memories with them......and when I had a conversation with my bestfrnd on this she told me to spend more time with mine becoz I am hardly able to do that and I also feel bad about it. My bestfrnd was saying everything good only but that things hurt me a bit like they made me overthink them. 

I lost my grandfather to hear attack last year and I miss him alot and I can't get over his death. I sometimes randomly see visuals of his dead body and funeral I can't get over his death and it's more than a year now and it's really affecting my everything functioning. I sometimes dream about him. Should I go for therapy or is there anyone who lost their dear one and can help me to move on or somebody who wants to connect with me with the same.

Dreams

A boy in our neighborhood committed suicide, they said the reason was because of low grades and he got scolded by his parents...thou I was not used to talk to him I did knew him, we went to different school, he seemed a decent guy... I was really dumbfounded when i heard what he did, and just because of that...
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In our school there was one senior who kept failing the exam and couldn't pass but still he didn't give up after trying 3 times the 4 time he got pass, I really admired him, because if it would be someone else or me, I just would have quite or would just shut myself up. He didn't gave up, so I also trying my best not to give up.

When I think about the guy who died I always think it would have been good if he didn't gave up....and keep going on with life...

3am Thoughts

Its being 9 hours now i lose my grandma in my hands it was not the age, I feel empty writing down my feelings coz i want to, she was so important gem of my life which i loosed, idk how will i digest this fact that she is no more, she's in the next room waiting for tomorrow morning I wish i could have make her alive because she wanted too, tody her body will be burned she will completely vanished this is making me hurt my mom is crying from past 9 hours she tried her best but we couldn't save her. And this night is going so slow, hope she's happy with nanaji, and she is alive ik

I miss my dad and I haven't cried from last 3 years. Just wanted to cry my heart out but I can't. 

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