I like one of my friends and her name is neqi like i'm obessed but i don't talk to her first and i'm litterally like a type of person to not text first and i read our old texts waiting for a text message and she has told me that she used to like me but idk if she does now but yea.

3am Thoughts

Should I call him? My ex…
I really want to, he called me a couple days ago and he asked how I was doing and if I haved moved on. I said I’m fine and that I had. Which I really had but I can’t get him out of my mind now. I never asked how he was doing back, I feel bad. So should I call him and ask how he doing?
Short backstory, we broke up 3 months ago. He was behaving bad and he broke up… I was sad for 2 months then I “forgot” about him. He wanted me back after 2 weeks and wrote to me every single week.

Should I call him?!?

Hey.....how's all 🤔

Crush

common sense is not so common

Okay its been almost a era that I've stop ranting here but i would love to do today- cause im filling up so much that, now i really wanted to say it out loud
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Well things were pretty much f'ed up lately..and i never really think that i would decide something that i never ever thought of..or even dreamt of-- well idk why I always get to the end of something which i never expected of. Well this time..for the first time .i chose something by myself and being faithful that whatever will happen,we are gonna try it our best innit, last 2 years of me isolating at home .. doing something that i really wanted to do, to the stage of where ive fallen back that i dont wanna do this or even feeling like doing it at some point i was so much frustrated and lost..about WHAT WAS I REALLY MADE FOR..well for the record im still confuse and really lost about what i really wanna do in life ..but this time the good part is..i take it something to even start and not sulking which i did for almost two years..ahh sigh , grieving took a lot of time ..
Its been hard tbh ..where i really didnt felt a human interaction with new people..or even with my closed ones aka my friends..well i do meet em but once in a year is obv so..odd and less..right..but now that ive chose something to do.. and im happy for a while, obv it will take time to get through of phase where even making new friends is hard 'well we all agree its hard right to make good friends' 
And from extro to bring a intro..
Last two years really change a lot in me..and im not really sad sad about it..but im happy in way that it was needed..the change was needed..the realisation was needed..i hope that the upcoming years do make me realise my worth about what i really wanna do in my life  ..its overwhelming to dropped your dream ..and emotionally its just -- its heart wrecking ik it really is....but ig it wasn't meant for me..what if its not everything i dreamt that would be..thosee dreams might never really for me..and once a great man has said 'eugene aka Flynn rider aka tangled character' have said that 
'That's a good part ig
We get to go find a NEW DREAM ✨'
And im so much happy to get this thought trust me, im really happy for me..
Yeah some days might feel so overwhelming to me where all those doubts came up again about am i not good enough!?...but its a cycle!!..and ive lot more to go through but hey 
 its okay. 
Its okay abbiee..you will got thiss ..like everytime youu doo..
And crying is nottt someone's weakness but a way of feeling every emotions ..and not everybody can do that..you feeled everything..from wrecked to even get happy with a small act... seeing kids happy.. listening to your fav songs.. eating your fav food .. getting those kikat waffles ..to window shopping in miniso ,seeing someone's who are being happy and loud that they dont care about others eyes.. seeing people being kind.. having those small convos with rickshaw uncle and those laughters..and tbb this things arent small..last but not the least
You are loved 🖤
'to love and to be loved' ahh my hearts smiles that its okay..things will beee finee..causeeee itss really going fine OMG AHH FINALLY
(bgm: birds of the feather 💙 🎶)
With lots of love
A. 



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