I just wanna live in this moment forever
Cause I'm afraid that living couldn't get any better
Started giving up on the word forever
Until you gave up heaven, so we could be together....


sandra

My Angel, Angel baby Angel
You're my Angel baby...Baby you're my Angel..

I’ll tell you how i almost died..but you bringing me back to liiiiifee..💕

3am Thoughts

Anyone to chit chat? A  boy this side 😂

Intro

I am Indonesian, 26. Finished my study in Paris last year and I have been jobless for 1 year. My parent still pay for all my expenses. Really miss my family the last time i see them 2 years ago then corona came stuck in Paris with no job. Feel like going home to visit my family but afraid people think that i am a loser, already spent so much money of my parent but bring nothing home. They put very high expectation on me, and their words are killing me slowly. 
I cry almost everyday, trying hard to get a job but zero answers, had few interviews but still they didn’t choose me, tried many small businesses to help my expenses with my friends, still didn’t work, got fooled by others. 
I feel blind, idk where my life leads me to, i am crawling alone here with nobody not even a single family here, so much pressure, nothing works. 
Feel guilty to my parents, feel like a big loser, feel have no goals in life. I feel so lost.

Mental Health

Today I will keep telling my self that my present circumstances don't determine where I can go they merely determine where I start 😊

Mental Wellbeing

I think I need to go to the hospital I think I need stitches 

Anxiety

Once a tragedy ,now a comedy .....

Dil todne ja rahi ho lo.. tod lo,
Ki dill todne ja rehi ho lo tod lo,
Tumhari hi yaadein bhari hai isme,
Jyada se jyada kya hoga.......
 bikhar hi jaegi.
Shyar hu me unhe bhi samet lunga......
 mashahoor ho jaegi,

Auro ki tarah bewafa na banauga tujhe me,
Ki auro ki tarah bewafa  na banauga tujhe me,
( Like aisa hota na ki kisi ka dil tutata to wo uske mehboob ko bewafa bana leta )
Itni shiddat se chahata tha tujhko ki ,
Meri Diary  me hamari kahani kisi adhoore khwab ki tarah likhi jaegi .

Breakup

కోపమెందుకే నా పైన 
ఆ వేడిముందు ఎవరెస్టే కరిగిపోదా
మౌనమెందుకే నాతోనా 
ఆ నిశ్శబ్దమందు అలల సవ్వడి ఆగిపోదా
అలకెందుకే నా పైన
ఆ విరహమందు సూర్యుడే వాడిపోడా..

తెల్లని కాగితం యోచిస్తోంది,
మనసుని కదిలించే మాటల కోసం.
రాయని పెన్ను యాచిస్తోంది.
తన కర్తవ్యపు దారిలో ఓ అవకాశం కోసం.

వర్ణిస్తూ వాపోతున్నా..కూసింతైనా జాలి లేదా...
మారాం చేయక... వచ్చాక పోకుండా వస్తే పోదా. 

నిన్ను రమ్మనే పిలుపుకే ఇంత రాశా...
నువ్ రానంటే, వచ్చేంతవరకూ రాస్తా...!

My crush use to take 3-4 hours to reply then I gave my Instagram to my friend he replied her after 17-18 hours and now she replied within 5 minutes 😹🤷‍♂️....(IK how to play all this but I couldn't stop myself everytime but IK who(my bestf) can play better than me) 

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