I got a divorce last summer. I thought she was the one for me but I think I was just lonely back then and she was also looking for an escape from her own reality. I thought I was loved preciously for the first time in my life and tried to cherish it but we had a lot of problems including financial ones during the pandemic and before because I wasn’t able to land a good paying job. I tried to be helpful to her and support her but at some certain point our marriage was all about fighting and me avoiding her - because I was tired of our clashes. I started feeling lonely and although she wanted to talk now and then, it always ended up arguing about something else. It was so exhausting. She left the home after our last big fight and filed a divorce. Although I insisted many times that we must give another chance she did went through and we did it. It wasn’t the first time her leaving the home anyway. She left me to live with her mom for almost 6 months after one of our big fights and she occasionally just left me before just to visiy her relatives whom she didn’t see for almost 30 years. That was just straight her being insensitive but I still wanted to be with her although she was just intentionally pulling herself away from me.
Now I just feel empty because I truly loved her and wanted the best for her. I feel so sad and depressed because I cannot keep even what is most precious to me.
Why am I even living?
Sir, I am going through an annulment so I also understand some of your pain though not exactly. We too, argue. But most of the time she picks up the fight and gets immature and helpful. It happened for months until I couldn’t take it anymore. We were together for 9 years and married on the 3 of those years. I realized after that is it s better to be annulled/divorce than driving ourselves crazy and in pain for the rest of our lives. We can live for different reasons. We may find someone else who will understand us. We may find a different passion … etc. Keep in mind that we have to keep moving on and we owe it to ourselves to be happy too.
I also wish the best for you. I know how hard this can be.
Sorry i meant hurtful, not helpful.
Thank you for the support. We may have cried our eyes out and spent days feeling bad but there’s more to life than sadness and grief.
