Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I feel like I’m getting closer and closer to the point that ima snap and hurt someone or kill myself. I’m really tired of everything and everyone. I doubt people would care if I die. It’s nice having friends or a lover but usually they’ll stop texting, just act like u where never there in the first place like ur some kind of ghost. I doubt my bf would care if I die, he already stops seeing me and he acts like I’m not important anymore. I’m tired of my family yelling at each other. I wish they knew what I am going through I wish I could tell more about what I went through or going through so much stuff happened to me in my life, father being on drugs, not really that loved, being left with my grandma till I finished the 6th grade while sis was with friends or parents and rest of siblings living in texas. I’m in 9th now hardly have any friends no one to talk to. Just alone with my thoughts._.