I feel am lost I have hell lot of food I cannot express to anyone my social life is fucked I dont feel like getting up and due to some incidents I have lost all my self confidence and I am just surrounded by problems.


I feel the same ….. I feel like there is no point in doing anything for myself 

Binge Eating

Getting bored is there anyone to talk??

Friends

Replace all doubts with faith and see the magic 

Affirmations

😣

3am Thoughts

Raat Hui jab sham k baad teri yaad ayi har baat k baad humne khamosh rehkar bhi dekha Teri awaj ayi har sans k baad

Acne

How to get into a habit? 
Like, I was studying really well till friday. Since, Friday I'm just fooling around. How can I bring back myself to study? I am okay with a monotonous schedule till my exam. I'm okay with everything but I freaking need to study instead of wasting time like a loser. 

Confusion

_just venting out. u cn skip this post_

Being youngest in family is not always a boon! My parents never ever let me do anything on my own or go out whic>> n now m dumb adult.. I should not go to shop, or go out alone, or even buy by my own, should not go to bank atm anywhere. Once I got scolded badly cuz I I went to buy a waterbottle at station by my own!
When I got job n moved to other city, they use to visit me every alternate month! some may say oh its good they r caring but for me its suffocating!!!! I should not cook, I should not do any work, not even do my laundry 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️ m a grown up I love to do things by my own. I wasn't even allowed (have to take permission) to go n meet my friends , have long calls🤦‍♀️Many tyms in past dad yelled at me when m on workcall past 10pm, he use to snatch my phone at night (it was embarrassing for me to explain all this to colleagues) once he erased my phone data as there was hug gif in my chat (after going thru my phone whole night) ; his explanation was I thought some guy is fooling around as u r innocent; ps. I was 23 n working. Oh yes they made me leave one of my loving job as it was night shift (ps. I love night shifts) 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️
 I deliberately stopped talking/ignoring my frndz cuz everytym had to cancel plans (tho all of them are understanding n never left me) ghosting became my habit as I know I won't be able to meet or talk normally.
Covid hit n stayed at home for 2years, my mom use to lie to my friends that no she is not at home -_- even if they can clearly see me, my bestie stopped telling me that he is visiting my city cuz anyway I can't meet. They don't want me to go out nor they agree that anyone can visit home,🤦‍♀️ 
Finally managed to move out again 😌but only after a month my dear parents shifted with me. My office get over at 7, but they want me to leave by 6🙂. TO COPE UP/SURVIVE with them I have to lie even to go for a walk! 🥺I don't even remember when I managed to had a walk alone.

Today after a long fight (n after ditching my frnd since a month) got permission to meet her (only for 1hr), but it rained so had to cancel plans. Instead of going back home, I decided to just roam n chill in a nearby marketplace n obvsly they got to know cuz they booked cab.
🤗I was roaming while having frndz on call>> within 5mins my dad came n now m sitting at home..., everyone is busy in thr phones watching loud videos, If you want me to stay at home then atleast talk or interact. 🙂
Its damnnnnnn frustrating! In past I switched jobs only to stay away from them, n now again I am afraid to take offers in this city I can't tolerate being prison.
They are not orthodox or rude instead they are super super loving n caring to tge extent of suffocation (DATS THE MAIN ISSUE).
😭😭I love them n Always stay with them but its affecting my mental health n career badly.


Family

Romantic 

Alcohol

How did we grow so apart? 

When did the distance start growing? 

Why cant we sit and pour our heart to each other any more? 

We used to bring a smile to each other during dark times, we used to laugh at our misery

Now we do all this alone, but why? Why cant we do it all together? 

Why is this numbness growing in us, why are we so cold to each other? 

Why does our egos win over our love and affection? 

Why is it that I am comfortable sending this message to strangers but not to you? 

Why?


Why 

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