Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I am feeling better after a depressed morning but now I am lonely I know that bc of school I couldn’t get other things done and I will be punished for that but I know away around that bc it’s not my fault but I know this plan will work bc at the end of the day I am the one who always has to suffer bc I wasn’t who my mom expected me to be. I go to bed in tears almost everynight but what could I do? No one believes me, everyone believes her white lies but not the truth and if she only wants that then I will suffer bc I love her. She gave me life so I will give her what she wanted and yes I am heartbroken that the person I loved so much, the person whom I told my father that I hate him in a rage of anger just bc he made my mother have a heart attack. I can never forgive her, she betrayed and tortured me sometimes I feel to do the thing that no one wants me to do.