Guys i really need help…
In 2021, i had panic attacks and started to become really anxious… It took me lot of brave and courage and i finally confessed to my mom that i needed help in November. My mom told this to my dad and then my dad start to mock me that im just acting childish because i wanna go back to my real home (im currently staying with my dad near his office place which is in different state). I told that i dont feel comfortable staying where im staying rn (my room always have very negative energy sort of feeling and i dont feel safe) and wanna go back to Mumbai but he made lots of excuses why not to go back. When every coaching started offline then also he didnt let me go. And i really LOVE my parents and really respect them but because i am becoming anxious day by day thats why i always say something very rude towards them.
Recently, mostly like a yesterday, I was really hungry at midnight and my mom was awake. I told her this and she told me to boil some eggs. The eggs I boiled weren’t fully boiled so i asked for help from her. She smashed those eggs on my plate and said that i cant cook or do anything. So i went back in my room and silently started to cry and started to say and imagine bad stuff happening to my parents (not very serious) but it was all because i was really angry on my parents. I then came here and shared little bit of stuff which was bothering me and slept when sunrised and sunlight came in my room bcuz i was feeling someone was there outside my window (maybe my imagination). When I woke up, my dad had very high fever like 102 or 103 with all COVID symptoms. He will go tommorow for COVID testing. I really love my dad but i never wanted to happen something like this during 3rd wave. He got COVID before too in Dec,2020 and his health wasnt really that great. Is this my KARMA?? I am legit crying while writing this much. I really dont know what to do now. Is this whole my fault!!
HELP ME GUYS!!!
Prem Mali @premmali
Start writing your thoughts as they come like brain dump, this will help you to take right action towards what could be solution to your problem.
Alternatively if you think you cannot get out of this by yourself. You can rech out to some stranger that you would be ready to share everything and ask for help, sometimes other perspective can give you right direction.
There are also options like taking therapy sessions.
If you want to talk to me, do let me know I’m happy to share my social handles.
Really thank you for support and motivation!! I srsly mean it and srsly appreciate it. My parents won’t agree with me going to therapist so this platform is really great to anonymously interact with other people and to have relief that I’m not insane yet.
I am kinda scared of giving out my social handle but if it’s ok with you then can we connect over here?
Lucky Me @luckyme
It’s sad to see something like that happen. You know what, my previous comments got deleted and I don’t know how to get them back or how to get the chats back for that matter
once it gets deleted i dont think so you can retrive them back. The account has been baned so all the comments and opinons disappeared. I still have the chats but the comments from here have disappeared and so one the other posts as well.