**for you**

Lets be clear
Not everything required your energy
NOT EVERYONE DESERVES YOU....

So take care of yourself throughout the day ....✨✨✨✨

Mental Wellbeing

I’m starting to feel depressed.

I work close to 40 hours a week while I’m still in high school, staying up till 12 or 1 in the morning to maintain my high gpa. I have no friends, no trusted individuals to talk to. I miss what I had with a long distance friend, talking on the phone every night, laughing and crying together, being that boyfriend/girlfriend combo. She’s the perfect girl but god is she so confusing. I’m tired of apologizing for things that aren’t my fault. I’m tired of feeling guilty or like a failure at every turn. I’m tired of always being jealous or angry. I hate feeling like I’m weak by showing me emotions. I hate building up my confidence just so it can be struck down by every minor inconvenience. I’m tired of being a nice guy when everyone just wants to be treated like shit.

I don’t have anyone else to talk to. I feel like I’m going insane. 

Insecurity

i am very very messed up with my ocd

Anxiety

There's a horrible feeling in my chest whenever something goes wrong. I always used to keep it in, not telling anyone because I hate showing anyone I'm vulnerable. My mom is supportive but I hate that she has to be strong even if it might devastate her. I feel almost always on edge, stressed, anxious, angry at myself for not being good enough. I always question if I deserve anything or anyone's support. I always compare myself to others, hating on myself. I cry it out and it gets better for a while, but that feeling never goes away. I think I need help, but don't know whats wrong with me. 

Stress

I can’t feel anything. I feel like I’m starting to go numb. I’ve never felt so distance from the world. I’ve never felt so lonely before. I don’t have family to talk to. No close friends. I lost my boyfriend. He’s moved on to a prettier girl. So now that he’s gone, I truly I feel so alone. I’ve let my hygiene go to shit. I don’t eat much. I used to have the highest gpa possible for my college, but now it’s plummeting. I used to go out every weekend, but now I can’t even get out of bed. I just don’t know what going on with me. I have no motivation to do anything. 

Motivation

I am 20M and i have vitiligo. Initially I thought it would get alright in 3-4 months but it's been a year and I'm tired of waiting. I'm fucking tired and depressed . I feel like why it happened to me , did I do something wrong? I already had a lot of insecurities and this sure blew up everything and made me so worse.
I just don't know if i could ever be happy.

Feeling nothing

Life

I dont feel positive anymore, every single day my confidence keeps going down and down. I dont know what else should I do or how should I do it. I try every single thing in my power to make people around me happy. but some how I just end up getting used, bullied or feeling pathetic. Even my parents feel that I'm useless, even after the fact that I gave up on every enjoyment in my life. I feel like crying soo much but hold my tears everyday. I feel soo angry yet hold on my anger inside every-day. I feel soo broken yet I keep a straight face everyday. EVERY single day. Its not easy. I have created a façade around me so that nobody sees how broken or miserable I'm. I feel everything I do turns back at me in a way that makes me even more miserable.
Life was/is not easy for me. Not even a single moment. yet somehow I'm doing it. I feel soo much pain, I feel a heavy baggage in me that is increasing every single day I just hope I don't die

Everything is going good
But deep down i wanna run away ghost everyone
Move to a new city restart and change my aesthetics too
Is it ok
Cause I'm surrounded with some toxic ass humans who are quite manipulative and controlling 
So i wanna run away

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