Everything has its pace set. We achieve nothing by hurrying things. It's the same case with our career. We achieve nothing but failure if we don't move with a gradual pace. 

Work



No honestly though. I feel nothing and everything at once. It’s like I feel like I’m  drowning but all I really have to do is stand up in the shallow water. And I can’t even do that. Maybe I don’t want the air. 

I have been in depression for past 4 years. Nobody knows it. Infact i also didn't know. The feeling had I didn't know that these were th symptoms.
Today i am still same.
For past 6 years i am preparing for a government job.. Now i have got one.but i feel i got trapped..I dont want to do this job but i have to because u know... "SOCIETY".  
Each and every day i feel like i should run away and not coming back. Sometimes i feel i should.. i don't know..
I got tired of living like this..
The thing is i am afraid of myself now..what if i take huge step..i dont know..i ....

Depression

I'm getting tired of doing this day in day out. I really don't see any reason for me to live anymore. But i dont even have the courage to end it for myself. I lost my mom and now everything just seems pointless. I couldn't do anything for her. I'm here in a new city with all strangers around me and I've never felt more suffocated. I'm in my room alone all day all night. My anxiety doesn't let me get out of here. My family back home keep saying go out with your friends. I don't know how to tell them I'm all alone here. I just want this to end now. I want to not feel like this anymore.

3am Thoughts

My mental health is wrose day by day. I tried to enjoy things but i am not able to enjoy, smile and laugh like i do before. Feeling happy is now become very difficult for me. My behavior affect my surroundings too. I really don't like that.
I never want anyone to be disappoint because of me but now its happening and i don't have control over it. I am talkative person but now i don't wantbto talk anyone. I am distancing myself from everything. And i don't like doing anything. My mind is so tired, numb and scary. I don't know if i am able to overcome from these things or i died soon. 

How do you think the world will find God to be in the end - 

Spirituality

I just wanna throw things and run away and jump 

Adulting

I can't understand what am I doing in my life or what was I doing in my entire life of 25yrs till now😖
I want to be a good person atleast but in real I am an unorganised and messy in life, although I am cleanliness freak. This thing eats me that I have no clean and happy life or atleast fine. I can't make decisions on time, and just like that messy things keep going on and become worse with time sometimes. Everything is mess, my relations, career, finances, no fun, nothing just boring. 
In conclusion, I am not happy with my life. 
And I am not able to be consistent with my self growth journey. I am not able to learn anything or make anything. Few months up and then few months again zero. So many things to change and consider but practically I am just tired to start with 0 again and again

Personal Growth

Lately i am feeling nothing, it feels like life is not going anywhere ,it seems to be stuck

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