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I am soo irritated........ 

The struggle is always real but, later it is always tagged as luck...
The sad truth 

3am Thoughts

Ok....!I have a crush on a guy in my college..I don't even know whether he knows that exist or not.But I have his snap..which is the best thing happened to me.We never spoke but I'm thriving to speak with him but I can't as I am an roooot introvert..His entry to the class exictes me and everything about him makes me anxious and happy.When I seee him my heart beat increases.I feel he is a nice guy with Lott of attitude..He never respects others opinions even if he know that he was wrong and make his argument to win at last. He always turn up easily and ready to contradict anyone any time with is talent..I know I am sensitive and I know he will be same with me even if I express my feelings...but I'm scared as fcuk as I know I am loving this guy who was already known for his attitude and rude behavior.but the fact is I still love him bit more every day

Affirmations

I feel like I am dashing a ball how many times I try to clime up I just keep falling down sunked into a water summing across the ocean endless suffering unknown danger. Your father is pulling a rope to help you family survival and your turn is coming to take it over. I hope I can do half a good job as my father and keep improving. I have to learn. I have to grow I have to clime height and keep climbing the sky. There is no end there is no rest I am a frog in a well. Doing nothing to improve. I will start now and will never stop

Can I find good friends over here ? 

We were more happy right when we had only 100 SMS per day and no unlimited calls ☹

Adulting

I feel like the shittiest person in the world. My wife’s grandma was admitted to the hospital a week ago, she was ok, had a bladder infection. They decided to keep her for further tests & to clear out the infection. Three days into her hospital stay, the doctor gave my wife the news no one wants to hear..they had found a cancer.. gastric cancer, stage 3. She has a big family, they were all taking turns staying the night, visiting etc. I thought I was her comfort away from the chaos. I went with her to visit on Wednesday. We were there all day. They gave us hope since the cancer hadn’t spread & everybody was in a better place. My wife was distant with me. I thought she just had too much on her mind & I understood. Today she said she didn’t know how to feel because I wasn’t there for her. To offer night stays so she could come home & rest. Or just to visit or offer any type of help. We are currently on a one car basis. She’s been taking it to the hospital. She’s always made it clear that her family always comes first. So in my mind I believed she needed them closer than she needed me. But I was still here at home to comfort her. I didn’t want to over step in anyone’s way. I love her family, I love her grandma. The news hurt me pretty bad because I lost my grandparents years ago and she is like a grandma to me. I just didn’t know how else to help. I should have asked. I went blank & didn’t mean to. I didn’t meant to hurt her or make it seem like I didn’t care because I do. Her grandma came home today, I was calling & texting for updates. I was so happy to see a video of her finally home. But now I feel like the worst wife, if you can even call me by that title. I don’t do well with bad news, I just kind of… get los in thoughts.. from past experiences, losses, and trauma. And now I don’t know how to fix it. She doesn’t even want to come home to me. How sad is that? I think I blew it. Help. 

Relationships

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Ek pal vich sau baar karaan
Tu jaave je mainu chhad ke
Maut da intezaar karaan..

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