Yooo so its bout girl i fell in after knowing her for 1 month and i guess im actually having chances w her but sometimes she ghost me ( ig im just overthinking), and i don’t want to rush things just want to make it perfect , and i think she thinks same but idk sometimes it just feel like i am the only one giving efforts for this or maybe she just dont know how to do stuff , we acc went to date 2-3 times mot actual date but yea , is it just normal or maybe something else, it just eating me from inside 😅🥹, lemme know if it is sonething like that is normal or no . whoever read this have a nice day!😇

Confusion

Hey guys, so currently me and my ex have decided to take space from each other for abt 1.5 months or so. We have decided that during this period we will assess whether we want each other or not and then if both agree then we will start from scratch again. However, there is also chance that she might consider another guy. I don't know if she is saying it genuinely or just to not give me any security and keep me on edge to decide and assess our future. I want advice whether would should I take this this current situation as breakup and then start focusing on myself and studies and if she comes back then we'll and good if she doesn't atleast i get our a better human nonethless. 

Breakup

Okay, she talked to me. But it was different, she was different.
I think I have lost her. she is so broken that she won't be able to forgive me.

I am feeling ache in my heart. I wish I could have change things. Remove bad memory of us. I asked her for the very last chance but I think she wont be able to forgive me. I want us together. I want her to trust me.

But it seems that my dream is going to end. I will wake and one day she will be gone from life and all I will be left with memories and regret. 

Love

I hate myself so much, it hurts
I've loved her every single day, 
Every minute I was spending with her
Was making me more and more vulnerable, 
I'm not good at words but, 
I was getting deeper and deeper 
with the fact I'm in love with her, 
I know that I've done bad things that hurted her, 
And can be unforgivable 
But I was changing slowly, 
I wish I've never came to her place that night, 
things could've been good right now, 
I've never hated her, 
I remember every single day I've spent with her, 
Every single detail, 
I was so obsessed with her,
And until today I'm surviving not living, 
And I now a fact that I'm crazy about her
I just wished she could feel what I'm feeling
I swear I was ready to do anything 
that makes her happy, anything
I love her so much
I wish there was a way to prove it
I love her more than myself.


I'm now with my family 
Nothing feels better from inside 
I steel feel emptyness 
I've forgoten who I'm
Every day is just becoming 
Harder and harder to live  
Lonelyness is dominating 
Even I'm surrounded with good people 
I'm trying to change but I can't
It's just overcontrolling me 
Sadness, emptyness, brokenheart
Nothing's helping 
I'm just tired of everything 
I'm burning 
My brain is away 
My heart is suffering in silent
If I had one wish 
I'll choose to sleep forever 
Never wake up 
I don't know what am I at this moment
And I don't know what to do 
I 've lost the taste of life 
I've forgotten how to live 
How to enjoy things 
She was literally my everything


 


Mental Health

Breakup problem   
I hope you guys will understand my problem  So we were together 7 months .after that our breakup happen actually my partner father was no more , she told that she. Don’t want tk go beyond her father dream and she was not attracted to me anymore her closure statement was this . So we stopped talking .after a 3 month also i am still stuck i am crying sad everyday feeling depressed ever She will give me reply whatever i will ask to her after a breakup but not upfront she will message me .guys i need ur suggestions and help me I don’t want let her go she is world to me (i just text her know also but i am scared to say my emotion to her what i am going through after a breakup).pls it’s a request still i will text she will give reply but not how she used to be , i need ur suggestions it will be very helpful.

I lost a lot in my life a lot I should tell you. Some people due to suicide or else people left me and promised me they won’t ever leave me as a friend but they did. I’ve been on my lowest for the past few years and I’ve this weird side in me that I want to keep a person save no matter what. I lost everything over and over again was used and I’ve gone psycho I hurt people so bad was always rude didn’t give a fuck about anyone cuz I was to scared they would hurt me again. Right now I’m in a relationship with my gf but it’s so unhealthy I’ve controlled her to the point she is suffering aswel. She had lost a few friends in the past but because I don’t want her to leave me I took everything from her. True friendships doesn’t exist in my world and I pushed it on her. We’ve been trying to fix things and it’s been so bad sooo bad but I swore to her that no matter what if she leaves me I would give up on live. She knew I didn’t lie about that so she’s trying her hardest and I’m here still living in the past not knowing what to do if she talks to her friends again. I cared to much to the point it was extremely unhealthy. But I’ve seen everything she still puts up with me she doesn’t even talk to no one just for the sake I don’t worry. But she said she couldn’t do it anymore and that’s when the eye opener came. It happened a week ago and it suddenly hit me that because I’ve been through a lot that’s she doesn’t have to suffer because of that. A lot has happened but for me it’s hard to trust people I can’t just do that but for her sake I will let her do whatever she wants now. But at the same time when I told her she could talk with everyone again she said that it was always about me and she couldn’t just trust me again. So I lashed out yesterday trying to make a plan for her to trust me but she couldn’t do it. The old me is coming up and I hate it. I want to be a better person but I don’t know how to handle it a little harsh word makes me emotional and the old me jumps out and tries to push everything on her with screaming. At this rate idk how we can go on like this. Can someone please tell me how I can deal with everything for example if she talks to a friend and not get jealous and not think she will leave me for them. 

Ps: I have autism and ptsd if someone wants to know

Mood Disorder

Idk but my girlfriend is kinda ignoring me or avoiding me for a month... it's been a pretty hard on me.. and whenever i try to ask her about it she just says 'sorry' 'oopsie'.... and then continues the same... idk what's going on in her mind... like she would be online and reply to groups or just be active but won't reply to me and then will say 'sorry, i didn't see the text'.... and she won't even pick up the calls (it's a long distance, so we can't even meet).. yesterday she shouted at me 'jesus why are you like that' 'what's the matter with you' when i asked her why isn't she replying being active... dude idk what to do... maybe she lost feelings for me... she likes to pretend or idk doesn't care about me or about us anymore

Insecurity

A girl don't hang out with that often just messaged me say she misses me. The other day she asked if I wanted to go out to town with her and so we did pretty recently. Noone misses me that quickly lol. I only like her as a friend but I don't think she feels the same. What should I do?

Relationships

I feel like my heart is broken I just cut things off with my befriend due to out growing , not being real , and a lot of reason but i finally had enough and cut it off . I told her how i felt and tgt we should move on and she said she gots it . I feel so sad rn idk why it hurts so bad im the type of person to not care if a fall out with someone due to what i have gone through in life so far but this shit hurt and i hate it cuz i still love her and care about her but im never going to talk to her again and i fucking hate it .

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