Ye healing bhot time le ri!
Kitni toh self help book khatm kr di, hobbies tryout kr li
Kaise pata chalega heal ho gae hum ?

Obio bro... No point in just reading n not applying 😆
I try to apply what I've read, something I am able to apply what i read, sometimes I don't and other times it's only partial... U know... like a normal average human

Yo... Than you!😁
This is useful in terms of my understanding... If this is what it is... Then I'm on the right path... I guess

Healing takes time. And bas self help books padhne se kuch nahi hone wala. You have to practice what you read. And you will know when you healed completely 

Maybe jo cheezein pehle affect kr rhi thi voh abh nahi kar rahi ho toh.

Healing means accepting urself nd being better with urself than u were before nd none of the self help books or hobbies will help u if u don't want to accept urself the way u r ,its not an experiment written with all the steps ,we all heal differently but accepting urself nd treating urself better is necessary 

SIDDHARTH VARUN

When you start to love yourself for who you are and start accepting the ups and downs of life, when you feel happy from inside, that's when you know you are healing..... 

read bhagwad geeta as it is by srila prabhupad
or go to iskcon take sunday lectures. you will meet so many people

Life

Ajj bhi yaad hai wo Hassen aakhen
Ajj bhi yaad hai wo muskurata hua chehra 
Ajj bhi yaad hai wo ladai ke bad ki pyar bhari baate 
Are 
Ajj bhi hume yad hai wo sab Hassen pal
Tere dur se dekh ke ana or aake mere seene se lag jana 
Ajj bhi yaad hai mujhe 
Tera wo har choti cheez per muh banana or Mera us per pingal jana 
Teri har us choti khawais ko pura karna or tujhe haste hue dekhna ajj bhi yaad hai 
Are
Tum mujhse pucha karti thi 
Tum mujhse pucha karti thi mujhse hi Wade liya karti thi 
Mujhe kabhi chod ko nahi jaoge 
Per dekho yr ajj tum hi chali gai me to yahi hu 
Ajj bhi yaad hai mujhe wo raat jab sab khatam hua 
Ajj bhi yaad hai mujhe wo shyam aj sab kuch bigad gaya tha 
Ajj bhi yaad hai wo din jab koi apna paraya ho gaya 
Or ek pal me sab khatam hua 
Wo bate ajj bhi yaad hai 
Ajj bhi yaad hai 

Acquaintance

 Aaj labzo se mere alfaaz na nikle 
Mere apne bhi kuch khaas na nikle 
In chaar diwari ke ghar me yaaro!
Suna yahi aksar ki aawaz na nikle. 

Kabhi samajhne me khud ko 
Aur samjhaane me apne 
Ek baar bhi vo bekaar na nikle
Jo zindagi bhar rahe sath mere 
Badkismati se koi mere yaar na nikle 
 Aaj labzo se mere alfaaz na nikle,
Jab apno ke liye dil se saaz na nikle.

Khoobsurat thi duniya khoobsurat tha ghar 
Kabhi haste hasate kat jaate the pehar 
Aaj sochke aksar hum jaate hain darr
Ki kahi mohabbat bhi inki ehsaan na nikle 
Ye Ghar mera zindon ka samshaan na nikle. 


Poetry

He say move on karo... keep ur mind distracted so u will not remember me... agr koi move on karna hi nahi chata ho ... agar koi kisi ko bhula hi nahi sakta ho tou .. agr kisi ki raat aur din aik hi shaks ki yado mai pr shuru aur khtm hoti ho tou..  

Love

Single rehne me bhi effort hai, committed rehne bhi effort hai, single ho toh boredom zyada, commited ho toh tension zayada 😂 (as I saw others), so the question is - single life is better or committed life is better'? 

(Hope to get some gud answers 🤞)

Mere family ka zor mujepe hi chalta hai I m easy target for all of them muje samajhne ki koshish koi nai karta par mere reactions ko catch karke usko alag way mai lete hai sab no one tried to come and love and ask y I m so depressed frustrated and angry unko mere emotions natak lagte hai and aj mummy ne muje mara coz ek scene mai I was suffering with my body and reaction mai maine unpe chilla dia problem is Indian family will never understand and ask their kids about their mental and emotional health.. na mai communicate karpayi kbi and vo log bothered bhi nahi hai



Family

Musibat me pehne fir de use utaar
Helmet sa hogya logon ka kirdaar

Dreams

Hey sometimes Jo. Hme pyar krta hai vo hmse irritated ho skta hai?? 
Actually my bf have corona symptoms nd I try to divert his mind so he can feel better but he just replied like nm intrest nd idk it's hurts me I k ki vo irritated ho rha Isliye mene use dusre option diye movies nd all ye bhi bola ki me movies ki list deti hu tu dekh le fir jke vo bola ki nhi yar mera kisise baat krne ka mood nhi meko irrigation ho rha hai i m worried bout him but also I feel I m good ya not usko atleast mere sath to esa feel nhi hona chiya tha na😀

Relationships

It was one of the working days in Diwali in 2019.I entered the office as usual and fell nervous to see all the team mates including the manager wearing eastern outfits.
"Why nobody told me? Even the guy who was absent yesterday came in Eastern attire",I talked to myself.
My mood was off and I was not looking anywhere or at anyone but my laptop.
I heard manager taking my name , "Vinayak" I turned back thinking he wants to talk about some task."Build baad me nikal,pehle idhar help kar",he humilated me for my off mood instead of asking what went wrong and simply asked me to help out in Diwali lighting.

They were taking group photo,one of the team mates asked me to capture the picture I said my hands shiver and my manager cracked the joke "Comedy he" without knowing about my anxiety issue.

The team had planned to go for office outing and fun activity.Those who were not going for outing were supposed to attend office.I decided to attend office due to my anxiety issues.
The evening before going to outing the manager asked "Finally kon kon nahi aa raha he?" and one fellow pointed finger towards me.
"Dharti ka he hi nahi wo,dusre hi planet ka he.Usko chod ke aur kon nahi aa raha he bata.Jo kal office nahi aa raha he usko us din ka code mail karna padega,kaam productive hona chahiye na", the manager again showed his harsh side with sarcasm.

I was (and I am still) among those who take ownership of work,who cares to see what may go wrong in future and make optimisation in code.
If I am (or anyone else for that instance) not interested to participate in things other than work those choices are expected to respected and not humilated.

But wait,he is my manager! Elder than me,much experienced than me and we all Indians are brought up with the culture of not back answering even if elders say whatevar they want.
Morever,he may terminate my employment for his own bad behaviour.

I ended up leaving that job without handover and without notice.I left rest of the team helpless during heated situation of release and hence my manager closed my contract instantly!

It was over! I asked myself,"What was I scared of? Why dint I respond with a NO when he told me to participate in diwali lighting? Why dint I back answer him in front of everyone when he was humilating me in front of everyone?"

Most of managers are rude..agreed...they have their own headweight...agreed..we can not back answer them when this rudeness comes with blend of office task but we should definately confront if it hits on our personal choices.
We may listen to the shouts for mistakes in work but not on choices made for out of office activities.

We all come together to get the projects done.We follow the hierarchy which is fine but if it hits your nerve you should speak out without the need to explain why at first place you made that choice.

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