Why this is so hard to get over him?😔😔we brokeup 3 years ago.But still I am thinking of him every second.

He just don't want to be in a relationship with me because of his parents

I am not interested in wasting my time in such things

I am not even able to think anyone else other than him that's my problem

Boyfriend

Hello everyone I am new here. 
I came here so that I know what should I do with my current situation. I am going through the worst breakup ever that's giving me mixed feelings. Me and my partner were having lots of ups and downs but that day when we broke up for real. I cried and begged him to stay, he said he will not come back to me. I cried and after doing no contact with him for 5 dyas, I blocked him in every flatform so that I can resist myself from talking to him. I also asked him to block me on WhatsApp he denied many times to block me but at the end he did because I pleaded him to do. Then after 5 days, I cried my lungs out I missed him so badly.. I can't accept the fact that we actually broke up. I was in denial my health deteriorated day by day . Seeing my condition my cousin sister who is really close to me decided to talk to him, she talked with him and he told her that he can't stay with me.. Because I always get angry at him and would always argue over small things he got tired. I was really rude to him since I was very bad showing my emotions and at the end I would end up being cold and heartless. I have hurted him many times. But I loved him too. Last time I pleaded him again and asked me to give me a chance because I love him and I will never do it again. (He was my first bf and my first relationship so I wasn't sure what makes an relationship collapse ) I did many mistakes. When last time I talked with him he was not sad, he was so emotionless and said that he got bored and doesn't love me anymore and that he wouldn't give me a chance. He was nice but distant. He said he would call me again but he didn't. He didn't blocked me anywhere but he never talked to me first too. I talked to him today if he had reached his home since he was out of town during our breakup and stayed with his cousin. He used to love me a lot I can't accept that he had moved on in just two days and lost feelings for me so easily.. Am I that replaceable? 

Breakup

I am so annoyed at myself and idk what to do So there's been this guy I have been talking to and exactly talking and maybe umm...idk sexting? He's cool and I did exactly what I'm NOT supposed to do.. I fell, wtf I mean come onnnnnn why would I.... I'm not the one to fall easily, and he has been nothing but sweet and caring and I still fell even when I didn't want to..and now he's been talking to another gitl and I am so annoyed, I know he got bored, and I like the fact he is honest and we weren't even datng so yeah,,, I fell and I am not the type to...and I am annoyed at myself idk what to do and uggghghghghhhh seriously I can't focus on sh''t

#28..........Days passed by and I kinda moved on from Mr. A and mean while Mr. B contacted me few times but I blocked him because I understood he was just trying to use me. He called and texted me few time just to ask if I wanna meet him again and stay the night over at his place. I directly said NO! And said I'm not the kind of girl he thinks I am. I thought of him as a gentleman but he turned out to be disgusting. Funny how men can fake things so effortlessly.  
And throughout this time be it my personal life problems or academic Mr. P always supported me and we kinda became like best friends. I didn't knew about him but I once stated feeling like I was attracted to him but then I brushed off those feelings thinking about my past experiences with men, I didn't have the courage to be hurt again by another guy. So I never told anything about those feelings and kept out friendship going. Moreover he has this situation with another girl going on where is was treated like ab option by the other girl. So it was better if I didn't stir up the mess more..........(to be continued) 

3am Thoughts

I met this on tinder. He is 27 years old done with relationships and I’m 22 still trying to cope up with all my childhood trauma, healing myself. Somewhere down the line I know this won’t work but I so want this to work. But then I can’t use him to over come my traumas. I don’t want him to take up my emotional burden. He had bad relationship. Experiences and I had worst life experiences. I don’t know where this will go 

Insomnia

I went on date with this guy and it went well but after our date we were talking casually and i asked him if we are going on a second date he said 'yes yes after some time' then we were talking and recently he went out with his sister to celebrate brother's day but when i asked him what he was doing he said 'out on a date'. Should i text him back and ask him out again? 

Confusion

Hi. Hope all of you are doing amazing. Need some advice.
1. Is it okay for my boyfriend to go out without telling me where/with whom/ when? I always knew where he was, what he was doing, but now I do not know most of the times.
2. Communication is very less, despite me telling repeatedly how I feel, there is no improvement
3. I am getting affected a lot since a month now and I am unable to do any chores or eat anything. But the fact that I know he loves me, cares for me is stopping me from making an extreme decision.
I do need a lot of advices. Pl pl pl pl pl help me with this
Thank you in advance

Long Distance Relationship

I am feeling pretty awful. The prime reason is because I am 23 and I don't have my life together. My partner who I thought loved me. But last weekend, he blew up on me. Then on New years eve blew up on me. I put the clothes he had on the floor in a bin thinking I was helping. But no. I just made him mad. We took molly and acid which didn't help and he got even more mad at me. Asked me what do you want from me to make you happy. I literally just wanted to have sex with him in that moment.

My answer him now. I want you to love me and not be so mean. Like nnow, I need support. But no don't text me, 

I don't know who needs to hear this but why you are stoping your life on your X. That person is not in your life now. I don't why people stop loving stop their emotions and everyone is not same. So just stop loving your X and move forward and do some self love you deserve that. I don't why people stop there life for that one person who don't even deserve them. Your X will give you a stupid reason and you will stop your life. I think everyone one has their soulmate but you have to wait for right time. First you have to love yourself and then start loving someone else. And if someone is reading this and he/she is in relationship just ask your partner you can marry me or not because I don't want after 3-4 years of relationship you are listening my parents say no. I think everyone knows their family situation. Everyone knows their parents will say yes or no for love marriage. So don't get fooled by my parents say NO please. So please ask your partner because they know the reality of their parents and I think if someone loves you he/she will be fighting from EVERYONE it does not matter his/her parents say No they will say we will fight for our relation. I was in relationship with someone and my parents caught us 3-4 times but I always choose to continue our relationship because I love him but after 4 years he blackmail me for something then I have to leave him. The reason was not my parents I loved him but he blackmailed me and blackmailing was taking my peace and no one has rights to take our peace. Please say NO to that person who is taking your peace. When you get in relationship that person is supposed to add our happiness not to be happiness. You have to create your own happiness 2nd person will increase you happiness and if that person is not doing that let him/her go. And if you love someone and that person has left you please don't stop your life there please. Don't become heartless person you are human not machine so please let flow your emotions and start loving yourself. When the time will be right the right person will come and will be giving your proper love, care, attention and everything you deserve. But if you become cold hearted then that person can not help you. Please don't be harsh on yourself for someone who don't deserve you. I think when we love someone and meet our soulmate that person reciprocate our love back. And if the person is wrong he/she will be only taking and giving us nothing. I know love happens and you can not think but just don't loose your peace for someone because our soulmate provide us peace not take ours. Sometimes it is difficult to forget our past and we know healing takes times. You can not love someone if you don't love yourself. So first love yourself and then other person. And if a person is right he/she will trying everything to be with you. Because reason are just excuse to end relationship. They don't love us. And if their are excuse then their is no love. And stop wasting your time in loving someone who don't love you. And also stop wasting your time in 4 5 6 years of relationship if they can not marry you. You are just hurting yourself. Love yourself and the right person will enter you life at the right time. 
Best of luck 😊 and give some self love and wait for the right person and don't waste your love on useless X. 

Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts