Wasn’t the most stable person emotionally and mentally to begin with, but I lost my father to covid, seven months ago, and since then it’s been a downward spiral into complete mania. We were incredibly close. His death also led to a chain reaction of events that’s uprooted my life entirely. Been keeping myself as occupied as I can with classed and work. I try to keep myself in one piece to give my sister and my mother some strength/support, but there’s the occasional lapses which are quite unpleasant. Been on the edge of one of those lapses for the past week. It’s just all consuming, and destroying every ounce of life in me. And knowing that I’ve got to look after what’s left of my family, I can’t even think about running away from things. It’s very suffocating.can’t even th