Very much sad Because no girl like to me mest and not able to speak as normal boys are attached with 3 or 2 girls

Money Problems

I feel so uncomfortable during nights and being hooked to mobile phone is so frustrating.. :(

Frustration

I feel down.. Sad... Everytime i get attached to someone, they leave at some point & I'm broken down.... Why this shit happens Everytime.... 

Anxiety

Update on my gynophobia

Last week I had severe gynophobia induced anxiety which was made worse by fever and body pain, now yesterday I felt better and decided to go out to buy groceries and I didn't make any eye contact with any of the women at the cash counter. I talked to my mother, texted my sister about her health and messaged my online competitive exam study partner about exam related updates and everything was feeling good up till night time. It struck me suddenly that I am not normal and weird, i have gynophobia coupled with schziophrenia and am 30 years old with no experience interacting
 with women. I lost interest in romance and marriage once I realised my mental illness and my inexperience are Major red flags and am just getting my hopes up for no reason. 


Therapist suggested to find a group or activity of mixed group and try to talk to women but am unable to find anything that interests me at the moment.




Mental Health

To be honest lately I've been feeling numb but depressed as if I am sinking deeper and deeper in and ocean kind of like an anchor on a boat, but I feel like I'm depressed because my past is haunting me. I've been raped 3 times my dad doesn't love me at all, and he abuses me mentally and physically it feels like he doesn't want me in his life, and it sucks, and I've been feeling so alone lately and I can't be alone because bad things would happen if I'm alone everyone is either gone going to leave or gets pushed away because they can't handle me, and I miss my cousin so much because before she left everything felt okay but now everything is going to shit, my mom is even worried about me bro she doesn't even bother me when I'm upset anymore unless she thinks I'm going to cut myself or hurt myself because one time I broke my hand by punching a wall venting cause I was so mad and the sad thing is that I feel like no one can help me so I'm using this dumbass venting app thing hoping that I can at least vent on here without being judged on here.

PTSD

so i was deeply in love with a guy but my family didn't approve and forced me to marry someone they chose for me and for their happiness i did it but I am not happy at all...now my ex was waiting for me all this time it's been a year and now he has found someone.. i feel happy for me at the same time i am feeling bad too...coz i really love him but i know now that i am married we can't be together and i don't want to cheat anyone and he deserve to be happy he deserves the best coz he is the best. he is the person who taught me what love is and i feel guilty coz i couldn't marry him.. i just want to see him happy... 

Love

Anyone up for casual relationship?

Girlfriend

Anyone wanna connect?

3am Thoughts

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