Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

Today is birthday of my most fav. cousion…we have the best memory of my life that I ever had…but strange…weare strangers too…nowadays…
…sometimes you don’t know your little and useless habits hurts someone too deep…
I always wanted to forgive and forget but neither I forgive nor I forget a single thing
She is the one who killed my inner child
I never wanted her in my life again
But my heart wanted her in my every second …but finally I learn to ignore my heart…it just pump my blood that’s enough…let me allow my brain to think about better…
I’m tired of reading the same chapter of my life …from years…
. Actually problem is not in them problem is in me…I’m the one who is rethinking about everything again and again…and making my life hell…first of all I have to move forward…I must have to fight…from my own mind and heart…
I must have to get out of this fake people surrounding…and this sad and broken relationship…I’m the idiot who find everything in my brother’s and cousins…and my so called best friend and except one everyone just used me as the way they want

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I’m the one who goes to them by killing my self respect…and myself too…
I’m the one who likes to be with them
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They just passed there time…
…you know if you don’t like someone just tell them and go away from them…you don’t need to give them slow poison…
It has been 6 or more years and I’m still thinking I’m I alive or not

What you get…just satisfaction…
They all are jealous of my marks my reputation …
And from these long years I’m just a I’ll just a person…who is suffering from unknown disease…actually I’m the one who allows themselves to just destroy me…