Today I feel sad… sad because I’m unhappy with how my life is turning out to be. I have a lot to work on and I don’t know where to start. I just got out of a 6yr relationship and it’s completely hard because I don’t know where to begin with moving forward. I’ve gained so much weight and now its difficult for me to loose it. When I was loosing weight the boyfriend at the time was not supportive. He was say things that made me feel like what I was doing was wrong. I expressed to him that it made me feel better and it was helping my confidence. Sometimes I felt like because I was getting my confidence back he felt like he could not control me anymore. While in this relationship, I lost ALL my friends and now i’m single with no friends so I feel stuck. I wanna move on and meet new people and start new friendships but I cant do that cause I don’t know anyone. I Sometimes feel like i’m the problem cause the people I do meet treat me like they like me and my company but never invite me anywhere. I sometimes feel like they use me when they need and i’m there because in my eyes we are friends. But in reality we aren’t…I sometimes feel really lonely and I feel like I have to put up a fake smile so no one knows i’m sad or maybe I lie to myself to make myself feel better…
If you want to loose weight it should be for yourself and not how people feel about you, so I will indulge you to do what makes you feel better, don’t strive to satisfy people who can’t appreciate you. It’s not good feeling lonely but it’s better than being with toxic people
What do you think makes you feel happy?
Just know that you are a strong women I am going though the exact same situation right now, trying hard to be friends with everyone but don’t worry you’ll be fine soon