To think so deeply could be a boon and a bane. Life has a funny way of teaching you lessons. No matter how much you pre plan your reactions to situations, it’ll never work. You learn it the hard way.
With my ex, I was a different person. I gave myself to someone who didn’t deserve it and I was shattered. That was a lesson learnt. Don’t give yourself so much to anyone, so much so that you lose yourself.