THIS LOCKDOWN LIKE SITUATION IS GIVING ME MAJOR PTSD FROM LAST YEAR. It's honestly been super tough on my mental health (and i'm sure others' too) with the constant anxiety of not knowing what will happen next or when something will happen. Just needed to vent. To whoever is reading this, please wear a mask and PLEASE PLEASE tell covid to leave us all alone. 

I swearr...last hear my birthday was on 18th april which was lockdown n now also its 18 april n this time actuallly all my family except me is corona positive....this year i thought of giving all my friends a treat but instead am in my house again ...so yup ...i will wish if this virus would just leave me alone for god's sake!


COVID-19

So due to this 2nd wave all I'm hearing is just negative stuff. Can someone please lemme know something of out this covid topic n positive?

Have COVID 

Physical Health

my country is getting worse because of this pandemic. and now im not going out from my house nearly 3 months and try to avoid social activities with anyone. but the amount of cases everyday is like crazyyy. 7000 cases per day is not a joke. 

you know how is it feel when you try to follow the rules as good as you can but nothing is working. those people still go on with their life like nothing happened. and because of people like them, i need to stay here like a rock

same day, same work, same problem, same medical issue. and as medical student i feel like i will get depressed after 2 second

Stress

Tested covid positive..and feeling anxious and sad...the social media and tv news is full of sad covid fatal news...just want clear my thoughts and feel positive

Anxiety

I have this sinking feeling.. covid has made my relationship worse and i feel like I am slipping into depression and I have started to crave death.. for the past one one year there were only fights in my relationship. I feel super lonely and helpless.

Depression

It’s about my maternal grandmother. Due to being allergic, she was advised not to take covid vaccination by her doctors. 
We did an antigen covid test on her at home, it came out positive. I am really really scared. She is experiencing all the symptoms, she’s weak, I can’t stop crying ever since I got to know. She’s my everything, I can’t lose her, I can’t, I wish it was me at her place, .. she means more to me than my own mother, more than anyone in the world ..as I’m typing I’m crying endlessly. Tomorrow my family is getting her admitted in a hospital and all my friends grandparents expired after getting to the hospital, it always is bad news, I can’t sleep, I just can’t lose her .. my tears aren’t stopping what do I do I’m helpless 


3am Thoughts

Hi, i feel covid anxiety.

What if i or a loved one gets it.

I had to travel in emergency some days back, and lucky i was safe through the airport and flight and with me there were many travelling. 
But now, i have to go back, and the fear doesn't seem much helpful.

Chalo, this is toh while travelling, generally also the pandemic is insane and having its effects on me and everyone around. The damn isolation. 
It feels so lonely when u can't meet or greet anyone. 
Missing the human touch.

While tragedies in my life, my dysfunctional family seems endless, and i have been in survival mode for far too long..it crippples me that how i'm writing this note in middle of the night...and now the whole world and we all have come to survival mode and this whole pandemic seems endless.

Sigh. Does anyone get me?

Another day of pain and loss I think someone has it out for me now with the loss of both my parents in the last year and a ugly family Freud case.
Now I get my vaccine and my body rejected to dose and I'm havening chest pains now so I have to get blood work now for blood clots something my mom died of.


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