There are so many things there in me. I hide it so well. Like not from others but from me too. Pretend like they don’t exist till the point I forget they exist. And I never acknowledge them. But some days. It just hit so hard. Everything feels so heavy and stuff like I am suffocating in my own body. How do u deal with problems u never fucking acknowledged to begin with. When You are not ready to accept that they exist. But that doesn’t decrease the effect though. It hits with so much force that I just want to cry. It’s like worst form of break down and helpless ness. Where I fail to realise which thing is more hard. Which part is hurting me more coz I can’t even differentiate the problems. I don’t know anymore. It’s just so fucking suffocating…
First of all take a breath and calm and take things one at a time.
When I don’t even know what are the things… What to take slowly??
It’s not at all about others. It’s all about Me. Result of my own expectations from me. My hopes. My dreams. My lonliness. My pain. It’s all Me.
I guess so. I will surely try to focus more on other things. I hope that will make it better. Thank you 🫰
