the unstoppable force vs. immovable object duality of having ADHD that is the inherent embarrassment of having interests and simultaneous urge to express every single thought you’ve ever had on whatever subject you’re currently hyperfixating on at once before it’s lost forever

Mental Health

Things have changed a lot from fearing the dark to finding solace in the dark...

Failure

I want to change. I want to be pretty too. I want to have a good lifestyle too. I want to have a nice body too. I envy others. I hate it. I hate this feelings. 

Frustration

Yaha pe sb kuchh jyada hi velle nhi hai.
🙄🙄🙄
Itna agr apne apne me dhyaan dete to kha se kha phuch jaate

Now&Me Thinks

i am drowning in this life

Emotional Abuse

Acting selfish, not caring, emotional detachment seems like the move. They only care when you do them wrong so f*** it, we can like we strangers without the starting over part.

3am Thoughts

I feel so lonely and judged all the time. Whatever I share with my husband later he will bring it up in a fight. Simple things like while learning how to drive I told him that my driving learning session was so good today apart from one mistake where I didn’t judge one pothole properly. After 4 days when I was driving in a practise session he started giving me instructions on how to drive (while he also is learning) and said you make mistakes that’s why you can’t drive properly and your skills are questionable. Meanwhile the driving teacher told me that I drive really well. This is just one example. I feel like whatever I say will be held against me. 

Relationships

Anyone from Chennai??

Other

Its kinda funny that I grew up to be a hopeless romantic and affection starved individual who is scared of being in a relationship, because i was raised in an abusive home with a mom who would constantly tell me that love wasn’t real and would only hurt me...
 haha.
 Anyways i would like to thank all the free cliche romcom movies id watched on YouTube that have made me never lose hope on love and a big fuck you to my parents for making me to scared of actually wanting it for myself. 
:D

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