Taylor Swift released her version of 'This love' and for obvious reasons it makes me feel like falling in love but damn the logical part of my brain. It is quite cruel. *Bittersweet feeling*

I'm surrounded by my friends and loved ones but I still feel like there's this void in my heart and I feel something's missing and I don't feel at peace. 

Lonely

i be saying no worries a lot for someone who is soooo worried 

One Sided Love

I'm feeling so lonely lately... Thinking about everything thing since childhood. The memories I don't want to think about flowing subconsciously. I'm tired of everything. It takes so much of energy to get out of bed and do a simple task. I even feel like quitting my studies so I take break every now and then in name of self love and then regret about it. I'm not of the type who will give up on life just because my life is being hard but still I feel like I need to hurt myself either physically or mentally. All the suicidal thoughts and the scene playing in my head what if I die? I go on crying for days without any reason. There's so much going on and I don't know how to get out of it. 

Insecurity

I’ve really been feeling isolated and unmotivated these past three days… I think this is my depression phase because of winter and all. Sometime I really question my existence, I even think of suicidal thoughts. Last year, I was really this close to take as many pills I want and to d!e by overdose. I know it’s really messed up. I really want to commit but also scared. I still want to live further…I just want someone who understands my pain. I’ve actually been to a psychiatrist but I don’t really like how it goes. Just sharing with you guys, right now my mom keeps helping me through this loneliness. I am actually thankful to spend another year. To anyone who has been experiencing this, it’s not worth it. Trust me ending the pain is not the solution. Open up to someone please.

3am Thoughts

The feeling when I've not done anything for myself or to anyone else is kindof killing me. The negative vibe that comes when I've wasted one whole day is something I can't explain. I have the fear what should I do tomorrow and will that be enough or will I just waste tomorrow as I've wasted today. This is really giving me a weird feeling, something like a depression.

Depression

How are y'all doing? Well for me things are happening so fast.... I gotta come out of my comfort zone... People tend to believe i have my all things sorted out,people also say m the popular one in my class,m always happy and cheerful but in real they don't know i at one time was bullied, my dad used to hit me for anything it is better than before i cpuld say but still things aint good in my house.,i have insecurities, i stammer while talking in English ,financial difficulties ,it ll look like i am confident but in real ik i need someone to hug me and tell me its okay u got this.i just felt like sharing it with yall... No one having a perfect life but its upto us how we deal with it...  Make god ur friend and seee how it keeps getting better... Move out of your comfort zone and do it for you as no ones gonna do it for u....keep growing and glowing love yall besties

Affirmations

I feel like an odd-man in this world. I've never fit in anywhere. 

I long for the Home feeling. But I rarely experience it. 

I hate being so sensitive. I feel like evert time I get told something bad or I get any comments i fall back into tears, which then makes it even worse cuz then I get told that I'm just being manipulative. And sometimes I feel like I do manipulate when I cry and makes it all 10 times worse, I hate it
I wish that I didn't cry, I wish that I didn't take things to heart and I wish I could just lock all of my stupid emotions out and never use them again. I don't want to vent to anyone about this, cuz I feel like it makes it even worse. Stupid 

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