Talked with people in real after long time .. feeling amazing 💞

can't assure bro . im kind of a reserved person.. i feel afraid of people judging me .. but it surely feel amazing when people talk good about you 🥰

yea .. i just feel like people will judge me .. I need continuous assurance that someone accepts me for who I'm 

This feeling should be regular now❤🤟🏻

Happy

I am feeling bit nervous as first time I am going to dance it front of school on teachers' day and I am feeling what will people think about me and what not

Overthinking

Today is Raksha Bandhan I feel  so  alone my dad went to my aunt house and mom to my maternal uncle.  I am sitting alone  ...I wish I had a brother.......I always  wanted a brother I have no cousin  all are sisters  ! I always  feel  bad whe I see my friends  with  their  brothers and on this day I feel  terrible  !! I know this sounds  silly but I don't  know I  feel  bad ! I wish I could have one brother!

People these days donot break glasses accidentally in the kitchen they rather prefer breaking your trust and call it an accident!!

3am Thoughts

My fiance doubts on me and thinks I'm a cheat. But im not. I'm pure by my character and intention. I lied to him and so he thinks I am a cheat but till date I never cheated on anyone. Dont know how to make him realise that I only love him and have no other man in my heart.

Mental Wellbeing

i am not a rude person , but i ended talking harshly with my parents and i really hate  it  and i cant help it, i also have anger issue . It annoy me so much that i talk so roughly with my parents but i end up regretting it thats really upset me a lot

I feel crappy. Well, It's not all that bad as I'm quite used to this feeling. But I'm doing quite well physically.. And I'm kind of being pretentious around everyone. Like I laugh, crack jokes, stay happy? While being around everyone I know and love. But I don't feel them inside like idk. It feels kind of like dissociating myself? I'm mainly feeling a few things like guilt ( a shit load of them) guilt for eating, for drinking, for breathing, for thinking something.. Guilt for not being grateful for, I got great friends and family. I know I'm loved and I know I love them too but I just feel so tired from everything, i can't do the things I like. I can't eat properly and it's kinda started to show and I really don't like that this facade is breaking. I talk to my friends and I know I can open upto them but I can't? I feel like a burden already and making them worry about me is the last thing I want to do. Besides my other friends are going through really tough times and I'm like that therapist friend/ listener friend among the group and I do want to listen and reach out (and I'm doing it) but I don't know how long will I be able to hold it all in? I feel really exhausted every morning. I think it might be emotional burnout or depression.. But I feel like I'm too tired to even care at this point. But it's not serious serious... Like i know i will continue to exist but I don't like this feeling I'm feeling. And I also know this time will pass and things will get better all those things but the feeling is super unpleasant. 

Damn. I sound like a damsel in distress. Which I hate again😅



Depression

well i embarrassed myself again, i think?? school is coming to an end but that means that summer is coming and when summer comes, i become very insecure and i hate myself

music is my escape from reality and sometimes i wonder if i even belong in this world and sometimes my depression really gets to me and suddenly i feel like giving up

i wish my family would accept me for liking the same gender, i wish my older sister wasn't so pushy for me to major in the STEM field, i wish my head wasn't opened 4 times last summer, i wish i had friends, and most importantly:

i wish i was a ghost

anywho here's some artists and bands i like:
-taylor swift
-5 seconds of summer
-the 1975
-mamamoo
-hayley kiyoko
-rbd (rebelde)
-los angeles azules
-shawn mendes 
-bts
-blackpink
-madison beer 
-olivia rodrigo 
-marina lin
-twice
-upsahl
-3ye
-gunnar gehl

honestly just drop some music recommendations because i am an angsty teenager lol :)

Music

*so tell me your secret, any secret with anonymous name and feel relieve* 
*it can be about anything
Your love life, studies anything which you cant share with anyone* 💛💜

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