Staying in just a room. 
A life of 22 year old lonely guy waiting to die in a room. 

This how a days goes. 
 
Wake @7:30am then work till 6pm and then wait for to sleep so i can wake next day. 
This is a vicious cycle it started killing me inside. 
I have everything family, friends, job. and living prefect live. Still i am always felt lonely or afraid of i am useless. 

It difficult to express sometimes What you feeling but hard to express and this what i am going. I want to 

Hey. I can totally understand how you’re feeling. I am living the same life. 22 years old, have the perfect life according to the outside world, but they don’t know how it feels right

Lonely

I want to go on a trip. Anyone wanna join???? 

Compassion

The man i m talking to these days.. I really like him. The problem is i m having hard time trusting him. Few things keep happening which make me really insecure. He says he forgot his instagram password and he's not really using it while i can see followers increasing on his account.i have asked him 2-3 times and everytime he says the same thing. This makes me really confused as to what to do!

Relationships

My girlfriend and we r long distance now...now from last 2 month she is not turned on a single time she stays romantic but she is never in mood of intimacy😅...like before there was not a single week without it...so is she losing interest or I m just overthinking??? She is like same as before in every aspect just a bit rude and sad ever i talk about intimacy and virtual intimacy??
What's should i assume by this??

Affirmations

I don’t know how to live. It all seems boring. Whatever I start I quite. I don’t work, don’t study, don’t socialize for 2 years. I don’t have any degree, work experience/skills or friends. During my first year of college I changed 4 universities worldwide and eventually quite. I want to travel, but then to make money I need to do something and I don’t do anything. I start and just it seems ridiculous to do anything. I want a lot I want to have everything the way I want. I daydream for hours. All days and nights. I don’t know how can I change it. How can I change myself. 

Depression

Can anyone text me personally.....


Adulting

When I was in 9th standard, one of my classmate who were a good friend of mine spread a very dirty rumour about me. Something which almost put a question mark on my character. I was one of the brightest student. I did well in academics and I was a house leader too. Was good with every classmate, juniors and seniors too. Almost every teacher's favorite. And this guy, just spread this rumour just to tarnish my image and create misunderstanding between me and some other friends. 
First, he told me that the rumour was spread by the other group of friend I mentioned. I know that they are very good and would never do such a thing. But after I heard those things, I wasn't in my right mind. I went to them crying like anything and confronted. They said they didn't do anything. This entire scene was near the male teachers staff room. The teachers heard us so one of the teacher came and ask what was going on. After telling him every thing, he took us to the staff room. The teachers enquired these guys and scolded them too but it was proved that they weren't the one. It was actually the guy who told me about how these guys are spreading rumour. 
Later, one of the strictest male teacher confronted him, he admitted. But of course, the teachers didn't say anything. But the teacher who took us to staffroom, is a father to a daughter and since my rumour involved my dad, he didn't felt good about this thing and scolded and said so many things to this guy. But still, he got away with everything. 
I was crying after that as well. It was too much for me to hear. This guy came and ask for forgiveness and I dont know if I ever forgave. I still talk to him but I started maintaining distance with him since then. Suddenly, this incident flashed today after around 5 years and I feel he deserved some good punishment but again we were all kids back then. I don't know what to do with this flashback. It's messing up mind now. 

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