Sometimes you’re an anchor, sometimes you’re an untethered balloon. Everyday and every moment is different.

Absolutely right.  Thanks for this positive message 

This is really making me think. Thank you for sharing. 

This made me recall a french movie called balloon or the red balloon. one of those. U should check them out:)

Mental Health

my friend , are you here? i miss you.maybe i wasn't a friend to you ,just a person whom you shared your issues with well we met online through a social platform you were anonymous to me and you knew me ,we were batchmates,our meeting was just a coincidence,i really want to talk to you friend,but I'm being controlled by a person ,but if you're here somewhere just know that I miss you too and i dont know if you consider me as a friend though,also i'm scared if something bad happens like what had happened before.I didn't lie to you I swear.
I hope I find you here.

Friends

Past memori


Anxiety

Until next time .

3am Thoughts

wake no matter how good your heart is, eventually you have to start treating people the way they treat you

It was my first time,
Wearing a saree, 
I was seeking,
Your approval or 
Validation. 
Don't know exactly. 

All evening through,
I keep staring at you. 
There were times,
When both our eyes met,
We were searching, 
Me searching you,
You searching whom
I don't want to know about. 

Everyday,
I yearn for eyes to contact,
Everynight, 
I cry for all the moments we missed, 

I wish you smiled at me, 
Just once, 
Fake or forced,
Compelled or compromised, 
Just once, for me. 
At me, for all the efforts. 

It broke my heart,
When you laughed at me, 
With your female friend. 
When I walked past you. 

Why would you do that? 
It gave a final kick, 
To my every night broken heart, 
And it falls apart, 
Every piece of my heart unceremoniously, 
on my diaphragm. 
But why do I feel like,
It lodged in my lungs instead,
And, I couldn't breathe. 

Why would you do that? 
Wouldn't you know,
I was already hurting, 
By loving you.
I was already made fun of, 
For still being stuck on you, 
Even after three years. 

We crossed paths,
many a times tonight,
I sure lost count on my fingers, 
Your head never, 
once turned to me, 
Your eyes never,
tried to hold an eye contact. 
I hear from my bestfriend,
That you were staring at her. 
But that doesn't helps me move on either. 

I watch you watching your crush, 
I watch you watching me watch you,
But there is little you do about it. 
Atleast tell me not to stare at you. 
Call me out. 
End this unbearable suffering of 
An unrequited love. 
Break my heart in one go, 
Stop butchering it,
Time and again. 

I am hurting,
I am clutching my heart, 
Swallowing my pride,
Drinking back my tears, 
Still giving you my heart, 
In my eyes, 
For you to walk, 
All over it. 

My each day, 
Begins with you,
Running in my mind 
And ends with you
stomping over my heart. 

If only my eyes had a voice, 
Everyone would've gone deaf,
With my confession of love. 

I wanted to entwine
my little finger, with you, 
When I walked past you. 
I prayed for our shoulders,
To brush, atleast a little, 
When you walked past me. 
I wanted to hold
The hem of your shirt, 
Stop you, 
Just to make you, 
Look at me, 
Look as in not like the usual,
Where your fleeting eyes,
Brush past mine, 
Just as one of the hers,
Who were swooming over you,
But Look at me,
For who I was. 

I might seem stooping low,
But I was ready risking it all,
to raise in your eyes, 
Yet I fall, 
Lower than ever, 
In your list, 
Little do you know,
I try to associate, 
With your friends, 
Just because, for you. 

I am not your type, 
You were making it clear 
I learned it, 
Following your eyes. 
I want to tell you, 
You weren't my type at all, 
I knew, yet I chose you, 
Damnation take my soul, 
My heart wouldn't stop,
Skipping a heart beat
At your sight. 

Every night, I cry to sleep, 
Wishing for one small reason, 
To hate you, 
Not to hate you, 
that's far fetched,
To unlove you, 
To lose, atleast one cent, 
Of the interest I had in you. 

You are unhealthy to me,
And still I crave for your presence, 
I look forward to tomorrow, 
Just to look at you, 
One time again. 

I can't strip for you,
I already stripped,
My self respect for you,
My self esteem for you, 
I can't go down than this, 
That's not me.  
Why would you do this,
To me. 


I wish you had stopped me, 
I wish I hadn't met your eyes, 
I wish I hadn't showed up tonight, 
That would've hurted less, 
Than you laughing on me. 
But how could I? 
I had to see you, 
To stop you running in my brain, 
But you ruined my heart. 


Thanks, for watching me watching you. 
For letting me watch you, 
I was stupid to think, 
You like me
The way I like you, 
You can never stand close,
To my feelings. 

Again, I don't know, 
If it's okay, to ask for your help, 
To help me to help you, 
To let you free,
From my mind and my eyes, 
For your help to help me, 
To save my dying heart.


Frozen by brain, 
Dead by heart,
Let me ask you one last thing,
Let me to let you go. 





One Sided Love

We all deserve to take a moment and mess ourselves up. 🤌

I never got a chance to say goodbye to a girl that was in relationship for 3 years. Real reason was because she Ghosted me that's why I never got a chance.

So I wrote a short goodbye note for her.

I hope this message finds you well. I wanted to take a moment to express my gratitude and bid you a proper farewell, as I never got the chance to do so in person.

I want to thank you for the time we spent together, even though it didn't end the way I had hoped. Though our relationship ended in 2018, (Although i didn't deserve that) I am grateful for the experiences we shared and the lessons I learned.

It took me some time to come to terms with the breakup, but I now realize that it was for the best. And I have found my peace in life. We were not meant to be together, and I have since grown and learned from the experience. I forgive you.

Though it's unfortunate that our paths had to diverge, I wish you all the best in your future endeavours. I have no doubt that you will continue to achieve great things and leave a positive impact on those around you.

Thank you again for everything, Savita. I will always hold the memories of our time together in high regard. I wish you nothing but happiness and success in all your endeavours.

Goodbye 👋🏻 😊



Idk how to say this 
But you have changed alot! Those texts those snaps when you needed me are gone,
I dont blame you
People change, when a new person comes into your life you shift your priorities,
Most of people don’t change but you’ve changed
I couldn’t express my feelings cuz i thought it was too early all I did was pray for you showed you kindness loved you cared so much about you, was desperately thinking ki thik hogi does she needs me is she alright its all gone!
Your texts once in a while and sometimes not even that hurts me seeing people change hurts alot

And now you are in relationship & It’s hard to move on !
I hope some day you realised how much I cared for you and How much I loved you.


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