Sometimes you don't what are living for, you are just doing your everyday's work like some deed you have to do and suddenly the feeling of hollowness hits you deep. Anyone ever felt that?

But that's the beauty of it, since life has no meaning you can assign any meaning to it.

3am Thoughts

someone just pls k!ll me already 

Never fear anyone never trust anyone never depend on anyone🗿🗿

Other

Two days ago during a fight on phone call he said to me "Do you really think I'm going to come to your home and ask for your hand in marriage? " 
 As soon as his temper de-escalated I asked him you said this ^ to me during the phone call, he denied, no I havent how can I say that, you're lying you're making things up. I let it go again. 

This is the third time this entire situation has occurred on repeat. Each time he's angry he says this and I keep thinking that people say alot of meaningless things in the heat of the moment so I should just let it slip by. I don't know what to think,  

Hello. So here's my story. 
I met a boy about 13 years ago. We went to university together but our friendship didn't really become close until a few years later. It was then when I started to develop very strong romantic feelings towards him. He claimed to be bisexual, though spent most of his time chatting up guys on Tinder and sleeping with many of them. He assured me he could feel sexual and romantic attraction towards women, though he was never seen with one. 

On January 2019 I told him I loved him and he said it couldn't be without any other explanation. He ambiguously rejected my without telling me why. He somehow stated we were on different phases and the relationship wouldn't work out. Nonetheless, he kept on meeting men and showing romantic and sexual interests as far as them implied. 

I never gave up on this unrequited love. But now, for the very first time in his life, this friend of mine has an official boyfriend, his very first ever boyfriend. And I've been left out as the ONLY person in my social circle who not only lacks a romantic partner, but also never has had a beautiful love story herself. I'm almost 31.

I feel lost, sad, left out and confused. 
I just needed to blurt this out to someone. 

Relationships

We are captives of our own identities, living in prisons of our own creation.

Affirmations

I'm feeling lonely i need a boyfriend and then I will be happy.

Boyfriend

Can anyone interpret my dreams here?

There was this non alcoholic friend of mine who has recently started drinking because of stress and depression when i got to know it i tried my best to give him comfort and i pulled him out of his depression but i couldn't pull him out from this drinking what am I supposed to do now?

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