Sometimes I wish that I can erase all the memories we have together so I can't go back to them , and feel the way I feel about everything.
You always said 'I was important', but forgot to finish the line with 'not important enough!!'
But it doesn't hurt anymore I guess, and I have started to learn to live with myself all over again.

The 'not important enough' wala part hit me hard 

Saurav Kumar

Breakup

**Joke of the Day - 8/2/21**

A: I have the perfect son.
B: Does he smoke?
A: No, he doesn’t.
B: Does he drink whiskey?
A: No, he doesn’t.
B: Does he ever come home late?
A: No, he doesn’t.
B: I guess you really do have the perfect son. How old is he?
A: He will be six months old next Wednesday

Get it? Hope this makes your day 😄

Life

I am sick ! Have fever. Not feeling good at all. Have some issues going on. Loosing myself with every passing moment.  I don't think I am sane anymore . 

Mental Health

I successfully created a new template that will improve my workflow greatly, and I’m acquiring new skills. Things are really coming together nicely! 😁

3am Thoughts

@broken_angel_41 are you there?

is it just me or is the end of the world starting

Anxiety

Vo khoon hi kya jo apno ke liye khada na ho.....

All I did was smile, even though my heart was being shattered into pieces, as you mentioned the words... "If I break things up, would you still be my friend?"..
It's funny to think that you said you would never leave me... Since I had come from a dark place where you can't trust anyone... I wasn't naive and I didn't believe a word, but as the time passed I started to believe in that promise. We would have been celebrating our 2 year mark this friday, but instead you left... and all you could say was.."what do I do with the things you gave me?"
I did see some signs but I didn't want to think of it... I wanted to believe you when you said that you loved me... I wanted to believe that  I was wrong, but I should have listened. I should have been brave enough to stop it. 
I don't regret dating you, but I do regret letting me fall hard for you. 
Now I'm alone. Feeling nothing, but pain. I've always lived with depression, I'm used to feeling numb. All I want to die Is hide from the world and never come out. I can't sleep, and if I do all I have is nightmares. My anxiety Is up in the roof, and my tears are always coming down. I know that eventually I'll be free from this curse and find happiness and peace, but for now... this is all I have left, and the stuff you left behind...

There is a difference between long and short-term happiness... I am not happy, but I am happy rn. Does that make sense? 

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