So I'm  the only child in the family and my dad passed away 2 yr ago. Been daddy's  little girl all my life, and now all of a sudden my only pillar of support is no more. Now my mom is sick and has to undergo a surgery. She has suffered a lot being a cancer survivor.  Its really tough to do everything alone. I really need a shoulder to lean on

I really hope it all works out. I know we can’t be there for you at your place, but i hope you get all the strength and love you need❤️

I love that you are still standing strong. You are a tigress!!! Love ya!

Your are strong and bold.First of all hats off to you..We are there for you it's not just words


Cancer

I miss my dad, He died 3 years ago

Family

my aunt called dcf on my dad.. idk what to do anymore imma be put in alt care-

Anxiety

I lost my grandmother who was very close to my heart. We shared an extremely affectionate and loving bond. I am currently in the US and because of certain immigration issues I could not travel since last two years. I have a guilt, I did not see her and was not there when she needed me the most.
My grandma, I call her 'Masi Ma' left me on October 8th.??????????
I am unable to overcome the grief and pain that I am having right now. I didn't realize the pain of losing someone you love until I lost Masi Ma. I can't stop thinking about her. She was the purest, most loving and innocent person I have ever known. Please tell me what to do. I love her. 

Relationships

My granny just passed away this morning. Don't really know what to say. This world's not shi, I been ready to leave.

Loss

I really miss my dad. Idk I hate everyone. Why does all of this happen to me. I see my cousins living happily or at least with both of their parents. If he was alive I would atleast had someone to say how stressed I am and can openly admit that I am not good living with grandparents. I really would like to see him if he could ever come back. I hate when others especially the aunts act like they can dictate everything in my life. Like they don't even care for our emotions.

 Back in Jan. 1991, my mother who had breast cancer that ended up being a brain tumor. My father a me took care of my mother at home for about 9 or so months. She then went into the hospital. I slept in her room for a month or so. That whole time I was totally isolated. No visitors or phone calls for a year. Then in march of 1992, my youngest brother committed suicide. The minute I was told, I immediately went into a state of deep depression. I felt like dying all the time so I started smoking crack. It was the thing that took my mind off of dying. During that time I found out that my daughter wasn't mind. Then my older brother in California died.  One of my two best friends came over and spent the night. We had pizza and beer. He calls me a day later and says his arm went numb and that he was in the hospital. He called a few times saying don't bother coming to the hospital because he'll be home the next day. A day after that his wife called me and told me Jeff had died. This made me way more  depressed. Later that year I found out that my other best friend had been murdered. On top of this, I used to watch a particular female newscaster. She reminded of a friend's cousin. I didn't see her for awhile. Then it was announced that she had cancer and would be back after her treatment. Next thing I know they are announcing that she died. I was depressed but I thought that I was still grieving. This went on for sixteen years. I finally got some help at the VA hospital but my life had changed for good. Every one who I had loved was dead and everyone who loved me was dead. I went from being a extrovert to being an introvert. I was afraid that if I cared about you, you would die. I had a few so called fair weather friends during that time but it wasn't the same. Forward to 2019. The pandemic hit. My father died in 2010. He was living in assisted living. They found him dead in his apartment. I  live alone and was scared that if I got the shots I would go home a die alone. I just got my shots two or three weeks ago. I have been literally alone with no one to talk to for two years and I have chronic insomnia from working at Amazon. I'm not looking for sympathy. I just wanted to get this off my chest. I have been holding all of this in since 1991.

Mental Health

Can’t believe this , never expected my dad would change totally , 
He’s just facility provider now , yes I wished god to bring someone in his life after mom death but never expected he would change himself . 
He barely talks to me mostly on phn with someone and I can’t do anything he don’t feel him anymore 
I really miss my mom 
Most pathetic feeling 
I don’t know to react to this , I don’t have anyone close who understands me or even listen to me 

Lonely

I lost my mother a year back, my father didn't even remember my birthday which is today,  instead he tried his best to pick up a fight... later he sent me a message wishing me... why do I even expect from him ... it's a shame

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