So I just broke up with my boyfriend. I know it will be good for me in the long term, but still do feel very shitty and depressed. 99% of the time I knew I needed to get out of the relationship, but the small 1% is self doubting and thinking what if this was my one shot. 
I dont know....this is a horrible feeling and feel so discouraged. 

hi, my girlfriend broke up with me some 5 months ago. I'd like to talk to you if that's okay, i hope your reasons are good enough for you to be thinking like that. Please connect if you'd want to talk about it too 🙂🐣

Breakup

😭🥲yeh himanshu kon hai ab kitne din se nhi aya yaha pta nhi kya kya hogya koi bta doh yarr🥺

Other

I have never had body image issues, atleast I wasnt conscious about them. But, recently There have been so many times that i look at myself and i feel disgusted.  I dont like what i see and i try to avoid seeing myself altogether. I guess this is because i have been getting comments that i dont look my age. I guess that was fine before and i didnt give two shits about who thought i was attractive enough or not. But now, this kind of behaviour hurts. I mean, when you are 24, you do eventually want to be seen as attractive and even writing this makes me cringe inwards but i dont think what i am saying is unreasonable and unrealistic. People really should keep their personal preferences to themselves. 

Mental Health

Festivals depress me to core.
Anyone else like me here?

Need travel partner to go away during this festival season to remotes.

Anxiety

Heey!
So I am kind of in a lost space. To put it into perspective Let's suppose I want to go to Canada for a holiday. I will start researching a lot about it , collect the resources , talk to people, prepare a schedule. But I will never go. I feel I need appreciation/ acknowledgment from others for the previous steps and that's when I will take action.  And just the fact that I need a THIRD PARTY to initiate action for me, makes me feel disabled and worsens my self-doubt.

Now I have read a lot about it and tried addressing this to a few friends. I understand and appreciate their efforts when they say "YOU SHOULD LOVE YOURSELF", "DON'T CARE ABOUT OTHERS" etc. But I've tried it and it doesn't work for me. 

I feel somewhere from within the issues lies:
1. Either I am chasing a destination I don't actually want to (and I'm doing it because finding what I actually like requires a trial and error method and I somewhere deep in me don't want to go through the down phase of it)

2. The only reason for my existence or for my NEED to do actions is appreciation from others, if I dont get it, I feel I'm doing something wrong.(this happens majority of the times, but in a few cases I do what I FEEL is right even when I'm alone)

So would love to hear about it from you guys

Self Esteem

We want someone to consider us special in their life but such an opportunity never comes. 

Girlfriend

बेनकाब निकलेंगे आज हम गली में,
कोई बेमौत मरता है आज,
तो फिर मर जाए।
🌝

Self Love

Feeling lost! Not sure how to feel and what to feel. It's a kind of numbness and I'm familiar with this yet it feels so foreign. 
It's truly depressing and exhausting.

Exhausted

What always makes someone miserable is that they are not getting what others having, something(love, time, affection, encouragement, happiness) they can get from other people(fnds, family, associates). 
If we take a moment to analyse this situation of miserableness, it is only in mind. Nobody gets what they actually want in first place. Every single soul either accept what they get, or simply deny what they don’t want.
Some people keep this miserable state of mind for more time than the thing could last.
Human nature doesn’t need constant same state of mind, nor the path of a individuals life.
Come over from this insignificant things, there are more things to go through in life.  

Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts