Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

So been through a rough couple months my girlfriend got date raped left me and now says the 5 years she’s been was all just a lie because she still had feelings for her first boyfriend who’s a creep that’s 10+ years older than her and she’s been talking to him over the phone. And after all this she’s going to leave the state to be with him meanwhile she’s still traumatized from her incident. I did everything for this girl would’ve took a bullet for her. So she strung me along used me and manipulated me tryed to get me to marry her get her pregnant. My whole life I attract fake people I doubtful there’s anyone real out there anymore. Most women have a super evil side I guess. Have trust issues now and somehow I’m a asshole for telling her how wrong that was. There were subtle hints I now realize but I was blinded by love. I’m still feeling a lot of hurt but I’m ready to better myself and move on after 2 months of hell and games. I just want to meet someone honest with a good heart like me but seems impossible these days. Does anyone know how someone could be so heartless I wouldn’t have had any hard feelings if she just told me that she still had feelings for her ex from the start.