Since feeling a bit good the past couple days, im suddenly going through one of the worst days i have had in awhile and it is at these times that i want to question the universe - why? just why? i was doing somewhat better and now i am back 3 steps. But it is in these times that i realise that i deserve the kindness i give to others and looks like binge watching series it is. I hope people realise healing is really a process that makes you go over and over but every time you go through the process. For example, this is the first time i realised i am going to have these moments again and so instead of feeling angry or incompetent i have to give myself a break and just rest for the day.