Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

Uk none of the knives in this house are sharp
We really need to buy new knives
I was thinking what if I take all the medicines in the house crush them and put that powder in a glass and drink it that should surely work
Or even better jump off a cliff
There literally is no reason to live
Like not even one
I am so done
And the best part of it all is none not even one of my friends saw those cuts on my hand and no one asked if I was okay
Not a single human

Ive had suicidal tendencies too. I too was inches away from death and nobody fucking knew or asked for. But I have lived . I won’t say life is really better and a fairy tale now but i am glad i choose life nevertheless . I took therapy and i got better. It took time but i did. And i do not regret choosing life over death because i can still make myself happy. It took a long time as well, but i did. Yes there are ups and downs even now but i am stronger person. You too can be that person. I can be your friend if you want. I will ask you how you are . So please dont do anything like that.

You are truly a strong person
I hope one day I too can say I chose life over this
Thank you

Thanks and sending you love again 💜💜. I know you will do better .

Atleast I will have control of this one thing in my life

What about your parents? Even if you’re not on good terms with them are you sure they will feel good then will not see ever after? ☹

My mother would be sad and would cry
And maybe my father could care for once
But it would be too late no
I won’t be here

Please do not think like this and don’t do anything which causes you harm

Hmmmm

I do
I want to tell someone everything that has happened
To not have to suffer in silence
I even want to go to therapy but how do I tell my Desi parents I need help
So it doesn’t matter
I just 😭😭😭😭
Idk
I want to scream and cry
And be told everything will be fine
But I know nothing is fine
And nothing will ever be fine

What do I do with my life

You have me. If you don’t mind sharing, Im ready to listen. Desi parents will never understand whatever have to do with therapy or depression cause I also from desi background. Maybe you should cry first. Let out everything. You might feel lighter. Then you can consider about your next move. Not about destroying your life, but to overcome it. I’m here. You can find me if you want…

Cried for the last 4 hours✌️

Cry as much as you can and want. Til you give up on your tears, breaking down sense. When it comes to me, I do break things to let my pain out.

I like cutting myself to lessen the pain
It helps alot
Helped me get through my exams
It makes me feel in control of my feelings
Then I feel better

I does that during my teen days. It helps me too but when I look back at those scars i created tbh I’m not happy. It’s like reminding how weak I used to be, if I were strong I wouldn’t hurt myself to ease my another pain in which somehow Im ending up myself in pains again. Like in a circle.

Hmmmm

Hurting yourself will leave scars on you not just your body. Im pretty sure you dont like ppl asking u what caused u those scars. Its another way of reminding me of those things i managed to overcome now. And trust me I HATE it when people so busybody.

First of all
U see nobody ever notices me
And if by chance they do
They definitely never see the scars

Hmm do u hide yourself in your room all day ?

Yes

Try to come out from that. If u never make a step nobody can help u. Its all about you, yourself…