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Life

I actually said to my best friend that we should end our friendship because there was a misunderstanding between us but now it's cool . Soo after that I am feeling that maybe he don't trust me the way he did . He is sending mee memes and posts related too end of  friend ship . What should I do ? 


Friends

Anyone up?

Exhausted

Warning - lengthy post but I request you to read all of it.
I think, brown and asian parents deserve much more love and respect. Sure, they don't tell us in words that they love us but don't they just cook your favorite dish when you're upset!
Sure, they disturb you by asking what are you always doing on your phone but can't it be that they just want you to spent more time with them and a little less time on your phone? Isn't that the reason they learned how to use social media so, that they connect with you even there (that's a personal observation) and not that they want to spy on you?
At times, yes, they just don't understand us but how much effort do we put in at explaining it to them? I am not saying parents are always right but if your parents love you, their actions may be wrong but not their intentions. It's on to us now to explain them, why we need our personal space, that why we don't always have to make safe choices in life and take risks, that we do not think the way they do (and No, it's not because of us using cellphones :p) and that why sometimes we tend to hide things from them. We have to put on a little extra effort on them because you love them and they love you back. If they're ready to change why can't we? 

P.S. - I am sorry if anyone is triggered by this post as not everyone's parents are supportive or might be abusive. It was not your fault if they were never there for you or didn't know how to treat you!

Parenting

I feel lonely and sad. Wow! Isn't that new? Lol who am I kidding. It's like I live in a house with walls that reek of sadness and loneliness. It is a disgusting feeling. I have been trying to find a way to avoid feeling that way, but I have failed successfully in doing so :) Never have I ever been like this. I have always been a very cheerful and jolly kinda guy. But high school and college have collectively turned me into a sad freak!! I at times feel that most of the time I feel lonely and sad out of boredom; just because I do not have anything better to do. But that is not it folks. It is not something that comes out of boredom or lack of things to do! I feel lonely and sad because I am lonely and sad. I have been like for most of my college life and let me tell yoi guys, it feels exactly like shit!! That constant sense of underestimation, self depreciation and low self esteem coupled with bad mood and pathetic surroundings just makes your day, doesn't it!? Well, no. It does not. My past has left me with a severe need for validation and a desperate attention seeking behaviour, and when I don't get that, I feel lonely and sad. I don't have friends who I can chill with. I roam alone in the entire university campus. Say what you will, but I am not a loner. I am just lonely and sad. 

Lonely

Hi, i needed someone to talk to and share what i am feeling without revealing my identity and not definitely being judged. Hope i Have doing a right form.
I am a woman aged 30 married 7 years back. I love my husband. I guess i still do. I am a normal woman i eat normal food and i have normal hormones like any other. But my husband is not like other men. Within first few days of marriage i understood that he s not much interested in romance. But he was being involved.
Sex between us gradually reduced to once a month or only when i ask for it. After a year of marriage he suddenly stoped responding. I decided to wait and see if he will show interest. Months passed, years passed. I was getting mad. I used to cry and sleep most of the night. Fight with him. He knew what exactly i was thinking but he decided to keep quite.
But other than that we were happy couple. Going out, movies, eqt out, pub and all… everything was perfectly normal but that one thing. But sometimes whenever i used to go deep thinking i was getting mad. After 3 years i started talking openly and asked him to get himself checked. Coz there was pressure from family to have a baby and even i wanted a child.
After multiple fights and crying, after our 4th wedding anniversary he finally said he s fine but he was shy to begin. So i helped him feel better and we had sex…!! Life wasn’t any better. His interest level was low only. After couple of months i got pregnant and boom. We are strangers on bed again. I gave birth, baby is 2 years old. And yet we are strangers on bed and extremely happy couples in front of others. And roll models to some too… now i think that he s never going to change and either i have to choose this life or leave him giving my child a different life when there is no father. Which i can’t imagine of. I want my baby to have a normal happy family. But what should i do. Whenever everyone says romantic couple, i get a sharp pain in my heart.
He loves me. He s not gay nor having any affair. He know he has problem. Every month i fight he accepts and he asks for time to change. And he ll be the same person from the next day. He s a gentleman. He respects everyone and treats me well. He s addicted to tv and phone. But he hardly gets time to spend infront of tv these days. Whenever i think of leaving him, he cries holding my hand asking for last chance. He doesn’t have parents and all he has is me and our child. That is the main reason i stayed with him from the beginning of our marriage knowing his condition.
Now me… i love him so much. I obviously expect him to love me and express his feelings. He never hugs me or kiss me unless i ask for it. Only i have to do or ask. There’s no such cute romances in our life. It never was there. Hug from back, kiss on sofa, playing in kitchen, shower together… such small things really matters and it’s all just a dream for me… i can’t see any romantic movies or songs. I immediately break down. Day by day i am going into depression. Sometimes i think of having an affair. I really think of it. And i even told him. But i dont want to do that. I dont want to have that guilt till i die… i am very good looking women so is he. When i go out even with child every men turns and looks at me. So many colleagues of mine appreciates my beauty and talks about my good dress sense, and being fit. But my husband never appreciated. If whenever i ask , he will just say you are always beautiful. And that’s it.
Now after reading my fate, please help me… tell me what should i do. How do i live this lifeless marriage till i die?? I want my child to be happy and get love from both parents. But i dont know how long i can survive in current condition.

Depression

Visiting Punjab soon, need some suggestions to look in punjab 

Acquaintance

Its world mental health day and i have no supports my mother plays games with my emotions and calls me manipulative shes very hypocritical

I've been giving her a taste of her own medicine and shes not taking well to it. I have little to no supports and do everything on my own as an adult should..but because im so angry and frought with it im losing my mind to it.... Literally. Im tired of being alone in in my head with it all. Im tired of being in the same town all my life and seeing ppl who basically treat me like a ghost. 

I want to move so badly...but im still taking my issues with me wherever i go. I want to die so badly..i dont now what to do.....i want to live..but because im so angry and noonecared i want to be gone. I have no passion left in me for my career choice...im seeing a thetapist...but am getting nowhere...because im so Angry

Im always helping others and repenting on my sins and wrongdoings...but others wont and it makes me vengeful and vindictive and i recognize that...but it wont stop

I hate also that my mother basically mocks me and uses lies against me to hurt me it makes me the most ultimate sadness...and i wish i could just move on and find someone who loves me despite my very deep mental emotional and physical scars from both my parents


The pain of not letting know your loved one; what was in your heart :( 

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