Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

Reality

I don’t know why I liked you
I don’t know why I met you
I know I made the first move
because I expected something out of it.
I thought you are different
I thought we can connect.

You laughed at my jokes
You cried at my pain
You gave me advice
You gave me a friend.

But I knew we could never be more,
You were not different.
I thought you were grey
but realised you are just simple
Black and White.

I made the first move
and you just tagged along.
I was the one who ended it-
I just wanted you to say
that you wanted to Stay.
But I said “Stop”
and you never turned back.

Soon you became my escape
I wanted you to stay forever.
I can never forget you.
I do miss you.
I let you go
and you didn’t stop me.

But I know,
You did right by yourself.
We were never meant to be
each other’s destinations,
I was just a milestone on your way.

Why do I expect you to reminisce me
when I ended it?
Why do I expect you to reach out to me
when I bid you goodbye?

I know now,
I liked you because you seemed like the one who would change for me.
You were simple,
nothing exceptional,
You had no drama,
seemed quite naive,
but supportive.
I was wild
so I wanted to be the one to show you life.

I was young
I thought people meet
and it just clicks
and the rest is history.
I was not wrong
but that’s an exception.
Generalisation is, love is as simple
as unlove.
Noone will stay if you ask them to leave
they won’t cry
they won’t beg
they will walk away
and never come back.

I met you when I was at the edge
I learnt hard lessons
Now I came a long way.
I know now,
Noone teaches anyone anything
everyone is discrete
they learn their way
on their own.

I can’t help but wish
you knew me now.

I wish we could meet every midnight
and I could drench my sorrows into you.
I’m that selfish
but I wish you could still be my escape.

I could never truly be yours
despite it all
You were never enough for me.

You were just time to tick by
in reality’s maze.

B.

(pla do tell me how is it, and a prequel to this one is on my page too under the name “STATION”)