Okay what to do when you want to end everything but you can’t because you don’t have the guts to do that and you can’t live because you don’t have the energy for that too. You’re tired and giving up. When people ask you to be strong but only you know how you’ve been so strong for so long and now you’re tired. So fucking tired. And you feel like a burden because you can’t do anything now. What to do when it aches so much you can’t take it anymore? Seriously what?
What if I don’t want to stay strong anymore? If I’m too tired of it?
If I wasn’t thinking of the consequences and the people I love, I’d have the guts maybe. But I don’t. So, no worries for anyone else I guess. Only passive thoughts.
And I’m thankful to everyone for the help but it’s also not like I have a choice to just give up. It’s only that I wish I did. That’s because I’m so tired of all the trauma and of how life has been so far and now idk wht to do.
Just calm down🌸. It is not necessary to be strong all the time. Just try to face the prblm. If u fail its not a big deal u have more life to live🍃.
utkarsh @fireboy1411
First of all I’d want you to think of all the people who would be affected by you taking such a drastic step. Your parents, your siblings, your friends, your teachers. Think of how it would be such a selfish thing to do.
Secondly, I’d recommend taking a step back from the situation and evaluating what went wrong and what it is that can make it right.
Making a set of goals and game plan helps as well. Small achievable goals. Something like I’m going to go out for a walk today listening to my favourite song.
I’d also recommend confiding in someone, anyone you consider close and trusting them.
If you aren’t at a trusting stage you should seek counselling. It helps. I’ve tried what you dont have the guts for and trust me it’s ugly. It’s really ugly.
Also now that you know that you’re right at the bottom don’t you think the only place you can go is up?
Don’t give up so soon on life, we’ve got a long road ahead of us, living the best of our lives.
I’m not taking that step, I only wish I could but I’m kind of stuck now. Anyways, I’ve tried all of that and now I don’t have the energy for any of this.
I’m sorry about what you’ve been through but I just feel really tired rn. And I don’t even know how to explain this anymore
You never know when passive thoughts become active ones. So I would really suggest talking to someone. Just venting out.
Life isn’t easy for any of us, that’s why we’re on such platforms, but we have got to push through, live through it, to become our best selves.
If you feel like venting I’m a good listener as well.
WHY? Why do we have to do that? Pushing ourselves through life, what’s the whole point of it? Living like this?
utkarsh @fireboy1411
The point is I believe to be better human beings. To achieve what we set out to achieve. To do things we have always aspired to do.
The best of things aren’t easily achievable. They require a lot of sacrifice and a lot of persistence.
Also because we don’t want to be cowards and be remembered like that.
We should be remembered for the good that we’ve done.
I’m sure you were stronger before. Why do you think you can’t be again?
Because there’s just no more strength left.
utkarsh @fireboy1411
There is. If there wasn’t you wouldn’t be writing this post. You’re strong. You need to believe that.
You’re stronger than you know. You will emerge out of it. Stronger. Better. More powerful.
I’ve been to several therapists and have been on medication and things are not helping. Life isn’t getting any better too.
utkarsh @fireboy1411
It will. You need to have patience. And I know that is something that you dont have.
I know you’re trying and I really do appreciate that. You know the problem and you’re actively trying to find a solution For that. But you know it’s not an overnight process. It takes time. And courage. And I can see that you are courageous as you’re talking about it.
Is 10 years long enough for patience?
I’m sure not all ten years have been the same. I’m sure there have been ups with the downs as well.
And maybe it’s not! It takes a hell lot of time to get out of something toxic be it a relationship or a mindset.
utkarsh @fireboy1411
I’m sorry it keeps switching to anonymous automatically.
Abhijeet A.K @akabhi
How old are you? And what has really happened to you I mean the situation?
Abhijeet A.K @akabhi
If you don’t mind I can know your whole story why you are like this