My sibling he is having trouble with his mentalhealth and Iβm sacred that Iβll wake up one day and heβll be gone itβs gotten so bad that I canβt leave him alone more then a hour or to without having a panic attack I canβt go to sleep until he does I watch him well heβs sleeping to see if he breathing cause Iβm sacred when I wasnβt paying attention he took a bunch of pills I havenβt been a good sister not even close I want to be better but I always screw it up I should be helping but I donβt do good with feelings I donβt do good with mine when he tries venting to me I say yeah or well sheβs a bitch Iβve heard him on the phone and said nobody would care if I died couple days later he said he tried oding well I was in the room wide awake and I didnβt even realize I just thought he was tired i keep thinking about relapsing and I feel selfish for wanting to because of him