My dreams were literally shattered when I entered my college. It is nothing like how I imagined it to be. Its so difficult to get through it. I dont know how am I going to spend next two years.

Education

DOST ... DOST na raha..... PYAR ... pyar na raha 
Zindagi hume tera Aitbaar na raha....



Friends

Is it bad that you don't have ambitions??

I am around 30, having a job that pays rent,
Have video games as a hobby, love my family,
Not married yet.
Then i see these people going for the moon about their aspirations , 5 year goals and what not. And i don't feel like it.

I love what is going on in my life..... however it is....
Is there something wrong with me or i am some noc character in a big game....

3am Thoughts

I always feel like there's a very huge Gap in capabilities, improvement rate and knowledge between me and my friend and it seems like someone like me shouldn't be on his side for it seems like I'm just holding him back or like he shouldn't be with someone like me that's not too smart. But he doesn't seem to care about it and still hangout with me and it's always so awkward for me whenever I'm with him and he's like talking to someone with deep words I don't even know. (ToT) I feel somehow so ashamed of myself TwT

So me and few people have decided to make a social group for people staying in Mumbai... 

Those who are inclined do let me know in dm. 😄😁

College

Day 114 of writing journal entries.

I’m in California right now, we’re on vacation going to Disneyland. I should be happier than I am, and don’t get me wrong, I’m excited! But… I just don’t feel right, I’m upset with my family. I’ll try to enjoy my time here as best as I can.

Hope you’re doing well anon.

Personal Growth

👉PHASE👈

Time

Could we please go back to normal. This time I promise to not fall in love, I'd be the friend that you deserve. The friend who you can go to at any given point. The friend who'd help you get comfortable talking about anything, even the smallest to the biggest. You have no idea how happy you make me, even when you send a text out of courtesy, I am so happy seeing your notification till date. I cannot express how much I miss you. I've even told you how talking to you makes me happy. I miss being around you. I miss hearing from you. I miss how you used to tell me somethings so excitedly. Please talk to me, I miss you. If we keep talking the hardships won't feel so tough because I'd be happier than usual, you make me feel at ease I don't know why, I don't know how. I miss her re, I don't know what will I even talk to you but I am even ready for that awkward silence but remember I am anxious around you, I get tongue-tied around you:)

Heyy how r u all today is my happy day or i think it might change cauz whenever i am happy (kismat ko meri khushi Raaz nhi aat)
Today i went and got admission for my inter college and i got MPC that's maths physics chemistry i don't if I can do it but i will give my 101% inshAllah i am feeling happy but little scared my bro and all said me there is no scope etc but i wanna prove them wrong

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