My brother wanted me to close the door of my room . So i didn’t . He told me he don’t wanna fight. I told him why not go for it. He tossed me on the bed. Choked my neck and kept me holding for almost 5 mins. Making me realise that I’m so weak that any other man can rape me 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣. I hate being touched he reminded me of all those other inappropriate touches happened with me since childhood.
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I felt horrible the funny things i had a panic attack infront of my mom. I said he touched me accidently but on my breasts. He said why do you have to fight with me then🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣.
Mamma doesn’t understand my Panic attack those phewww.
After punching my arm into the wall and cutting my hand untill they bleed i feel relaxed and ashamed and you know this feeling. 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣.
My day went great. My own self is telling me how weak i am. Like he tells me everyday also i did all this self harm just to see attention and that panic attack was for that too just so you know. Like I’m seeking attention here too. Talking about it here.
I’m laughing so hard right now🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣.
Have a great day you all
Hey I can understand how that feels, I’ve always felt unsafe in my own house so many times I stopped myself from crying thinking I’m so pathetic and weak but then someone I’m close to said I should not let my inner demons consume me and tell me I’m weak instead I should stand against it and say out loud “Bitch I’m a strong badass women, eventhough right now you may think you are stronger and suppressing me down I will not let you do that any longer because guess what you inner demon bitches I’m stronger than you think. I’ve survived till now although all these times you hurted me and harmed me I survived and I’ve come this far to come this far and I’m proud of myself” hey say these to you inner demons who make you feel weak and believe it they will get scared and then girll take over from there and have the control in your hands!! And talk to your parents that you wanna join a self defense class, I guess along with your mental health you will be able to feel secure about your physical health too then eventhough anyone tries to harm you in any way you can defend yourself and feel more stronger!!
About your brother next time he chokes you or like fight with you, tho I’m not saying to do this but well just kick where the sun doesn’t shine, kick him in his nuts (not too hard but hard enough to loose his grip on you while fighting) and then loose yourself from him. Also tell him clearly and loud that you don’t feel comfortable getting touched there eventhough if it’s by accident tell him how you feel & get some unwanted memories get triggered and ask him to apologize and I think he will understand your worries and stress after all besides the jokes and fun fighting he still is your brother…You go girl🤍
